Harry Styles Imagines

I hate you, I love you

Y/N POV

I couldn't keep my eyes off him, the way I could hear his heart beating into my ears and how I could hear his calm breath syncing with mine. He was flawless, but he wasn't mine.

I'm not the kind of girl who just uses a guy for sex but I don't know, it's different with Harry. Although we promised to keep it at a "friends with benefits" stage, I started to feel more. I promised Harry and myself that I wouldn't feel this way and now I do. It's not like you can't fall in love with someone you've been having sex with for 5 months. Back to the point, I needed to tell Harry about my feelings.

As I laid on his chest I began to feel him waking up. I sat up and just stared at the way his hair look so smooth and perfect and, no stop it.

"Hey stop staring at me, you might fall in love," Harry said in his raspy voice and chuckled.
"How could I fall in love with you?" I said sarcastically,"You're doing right now love," Harry said as I became in shock. "I'm just playing with you," Harry said as he sat up.

"Why are you getting up so early, it's barely noon," I said trying to take the topic off of what we were just talking about. "I've got a date today, can you believe it!" Harry said in an excited tone. "Oh, um that's good I guess, what's her name?" I asked trying not act sad. "Violet, her name is Violet. She's an absolute beauty. She so kind and, and PERFECT." Harry said in such enthusiastic voice. "She might be the one Y/N," Harry said as he looked me straight in the eye. "That's great! Hopefully, she treats you well." I said as I sat there smiling from the outside but deeply crying on the inside.

How though, how did he not catch feelings for me, for us? He let this go so quick and hit it me like a bus. I wanted to break down because after he proposes that's it, that's the end of us

I just sat on the corner of the bed staring at the wall and thinking about all the possibilities that could have happened if I had just told Harry how I felt. Told him that he was the reason why I get up every day with a smile, that he was far more than handsome, he was a true beauty, that he's the reason why I'm still here living life, but I can't now. All because I was too afraid of losing him, losing the connection we had and losing myself. I just wanted him to stay and now he's just gonna leave.

All these things rushed inside my head, I was drowning myself with emotions of the past. I hadn't noticed I began to cry until Harry said: "Hey, which tie should I - are you okay?" "Oh yeah I'm fine," I said as I wiped my tears swiftly. "Are you sure, you don't look, fine sweetheart," He said as he came closer to me. "Yeah, yeah I'm just emotional that's all," I said putting on a smile. "Emotional about what?" He said as he put his hand on my cheek. "Oh nothing, I'm just happy for you," I said quickly, as I changed the subject by saying, "I think you should wear this tie, it looks great with your outfit." "Thanks, I should probably get ready now." He said as he walked into the bathroom. I collected my clothes and items and put them on. I made sure I had everything because when I leave this house I can't come back.

I sat on the bed and watched tv to get my mind off things. I had been so amused by the tv that I hadn't realized Harry walked out of the bathroom. "So, what do you think?" He said as he twirled. "I think you look very handsome," I said as I stood up and fixed his collar. He sprayed some cologne and put on his shoes. When he was done he got up and said "ready?" "Ready as I'll ever be," I said while standing up. "What was that supposed to mean," he said sarcastically as we walked down the stairs. "Nothing, it's just a metaphor," I said when I clearly know that's not the case.

We walked to the car and when we got in he turned on the engine and drove to my place. He turned on his music and just did his normal thing, while I sat there. I was mortified but could you blame me. I was gonna lose everything.

When we got to my house Harry got out the car and opened the door for me like he always does. He met me at the door and waited till I opened it. I plopped myself to the entrance and turned around slowly to see Harry's face smiling. "I'm gonna miss you Y/N, you know that right," Harry said as he stood there with his hands in his pockets. "I'm gonna miss you too Harry," I said with tears slowly rolling down my face. I practically leaped in his arms letting my legs wrap around his body. He carried me for a few minutes and I began to hear him sniffle. I pulled my body off his and saw that his eyes began to overflow with tears. I took my sleeve and wiped it off his face. He released me and let me down gently. I took a step inside as we both smiled and he walked away. I closed the door hoping he would run in and tell me he loves me but I heard his car turn on and I saw him drive away. I sat on my couch for an hour contemplating whether I should go after him or not.

It had gotten to around 3ish and I knew Harry was still on his date so I waited. I turned on the tv and feel asleep. I woke up to see the time and it had said 9:00 pm. I sat up and rubbed my eyes and I realized, I have to go after Harry. I quickly got up put on my shoes and walked out the door. I got in my car and drove off. It didn't take me long to get to his house, considering that I went way beyond the speed limit.

I parked my car right in front of his house. I got out stood in front of the door and rang the doorbell. The door opened only to reveal Harry's image in the door frame. When he had realized it was me I jumped in his arms and kissed him. He brought me inside and laid me on the couch. We kissed for five minutes till Harry pulled away and said: "So, why did you come back babe." "I love you Harry Edward Styles, I couldn't let you go that easily," I said as I chuckled. "Why don't we bring this upstairs and let's just find out how much you actually love me," Harry said with a smirk on his face. The rest was only us to find out.