Apart

In the middle of starting over

Jordan hasn't been coming over ever since we separted.

I surprisingly miss him.

His smile.

His gorgeous blue eyes.

I guess what they say is true.

You never know what you truly had until you lose it.All of it.

But,I guess friends fight.

And they say things they don't mean.

Like when I told him he meant nothing to me.

I was wrong.

He means the world to me.

And I don't know why I feel like this.

But it's been Days.Weeks.

Since I've last seen him.Its like his avoiding me.

It's like he meant ever single thing he said.

Cause his doing things now that I know he wouldn't do in real life.

Like,

Join the football team

At the same thing while getting the schools "bad boy"title after he had a fight with the

Captain of the group.And a fight with a freshmen.Who's still in the hospital.

He sits at the popular table regularly.And he doesn't even look at me when I make my way to...well,I'm trying to start over.

I was such a child.
I was so rude to him..
He was just trying to help me.
Maybe it was because he felt bad for me,or because it was because he liked me.

It' can only be one of them.

I need to start over.

I need to make some friends.

Even if it's almost the end of the school year.

And I will graduate,because my grades starting rising again.

So today was the day to start.I took off the blue hoodie I always wore.

Actually combed my hair and applied makeup,

Cause makeup makes you pretty.And pretty was a step into popularity
Cause popularity means no one will hurt me anymore.

I put on some blue shorts.And a loose white shirt.And..well,I didn't know how to describe it since it wasn't my style.But change is good.And I look good.It fits me.

Since I've been on a diet since Jordan left.

Because he was right.

I'm not gonna get through life with a frown on my face.I need to change,

My personality.My additude.My appearance.

I went to the bus stop,As usual And waited for the bus.

"Hey Cristine!"someone yelled,"It's her aga-Woah"

I turned around and waved.Please go away

Please go away

Please go away

"What happened to you?"They all asked.Surprised."You're HOT!"

"Um..Thanks"I said and blushed."Do you guys mind if I come with you?"I asked
Looking at their car.They all smiled,the boys blushed.

"Yeah,Sure,come in!"

"Sit next to me!"

"No,there's space next to me!"

"She's mine!"

I smiled and went in the car.We drove off.

And they wouldn't let me out of their sight all day

Mostly because everyone noticed my sudden change,

Everyone.

"Ms.Waterson"The professor said,the same one who always calls me a worthless bitch,said,in a surprised tone,"That isn't appropriate for school"

"Ooh"I smirked."It's cute how you think I care".

"Ms.Waterson!"She yelled,Walking away from the laughing teens around us.

"SAVAGE!!!"Someone yelled out and everyone laughed and clapped for me.

I

Feel

Different(Riley...bc I can).

But I can get used to it.

Because I'm loving It.