Wild Secrets

5 - LET'S DANCE

It's been days since Raphael's birthday. Raphael's not visiting anymore but he still texts me, asking me how am I and then the conversation ends. I really do miss him but I guess I should give him space and time. It's probably what he needs right now.

After the song, we decided to go back to our place. We just sat there quietly. No one's trying to end the awkwardness for ten minutes.

I was surprised when he admitted his feelings. It was unexpected because I really thought he just sees me as a close friend or even best friends.

Suddenly, he began talking.

"I like you but" he cut himself and looked down.

"But what?" I asked.

"I can't" he answered. Why? Is there something wrong? Is he already taken? I began to wonder.

Why don't you confess to him too? My conscience tells me but something's also telling me not to admit my feelings like something' wrong's about to happen when I confess.

I'm scared.

I'm scared because I might end up being dumped again or even used. For the past two years, I had guys confessing which in fact, I like too. At first, we're so happy until we got to the time the guy will dump me for no good reason. I also found out that the second guy was just using me because I'm a Wilder. From the third guy, I was completely over with confession and even love. They're just painful. Full of heart aches and unworthy sacrifice.

"It's not the right time" he said and stood up.

From that time, Raphael distanced himself in the party until it's time for me to go home. He thanked me and said

"I hope we can still be good friends. Good bye" He said and hugged me.

We began practicing for the upcoming state dance contest. Zac and Patrick also started to practice because state soccer game's coming up too. I really didn't expect to see Patrick playing such a sport. Jake, well he's in the basketball team and just like us, basketball tournament's up. Almost all event in sports and cultural are involve in the State Meet this September.

My birthday's coming up too and I still don't have any plans. I want to keep it simple. I only have three days and i'm already 16. Sweet 16 for me.

Dad finally left NY and went to Seattle. We didn't have any serious conversation because of my so called busy schedule. He really thought I was working hard to get high grades. He also didn't have time to visit me because of sudden meetings held by his co business partners. No one also knew that Greg's here in NY. He also know that this is his danger zone. He did his best to avoid the medias all over the place. It's kinda weird though that someone famous and rich us not welcome in a famous and rich city like this.

The issue between Julian has been almost forgotten. I don't want to mess up their good life now so I decided to keep my mouth shut.

"Hey" Zac greeted with a smile. I was stacking my books in my locker. He helped me immediately.

"Zac? Don't you have soccer practice?" I asked surprisingly. It's three in the afternoon. Every Friday, 3 pm, classes will be cut for a training or practice. Our school's taking the contest seriously. According to Jake, our school was three straight overall champions and our competitive director Levine wants to make it to the four peat.

"I'm planning to walk you to the dance studio first hehe" He said and giggled. When Raphael confessed his feelings towards me, most of my admiration for Zac disappeared. I really don't know why. I noticed that Zac's very cheerful right now, did something happen?

"Sure thing" I answered.

Zac's always the tough guy in the group but whenever he's around me, he becomes this cheerful man. He laughs instead of smirking and he smiles instead of grinning like we gave him his sunshine.