Finding You

Chapter 2

His blue eyes swirled through my mind. His brown hair making my heart beat faster and faster. I couldn't wait to see him again. I knew his name and how he looked like just not 'him'. And I wanted to get to know him better. Now that I think of it, we barley had a conversation, a full conversation anyway. He only said "Hello" and "Goodbye". He doesn't even know my name. Why is he making me feel this way?

I tried to take my mind off him but he kept coming up in everything. Even my drawings. I draw for fun. All I wanted to do was say "Hi nice to see you again" or "Hey, I want to get to know you better". Nothing I thought of saying worked.

I stood in front of the girls bathroom mirror repeating the phrases,words that I would probably NOT be saying to Reed. Still I will try to make it happen. His name still rang a bell. In my head, over and over. "Reed, Reed, Reed" I whispered. Over and over. Yet I couldn't pin point exactly where or how I heard it. Besides the fact he told me. I just shrugged it off.

There were other girls in the bathroom. I wish I would have went in the handy cap stall. One of the most beautiful girls in the school, which all guys were over, told me; "Why are you even trying, you know you won't get a guy anyway." Which was probably right. She laughed along with her so called, friends, and left.

I was left standing there, feeling guilty. She was right. Reed will never like someone like me. I am a loner and no one likes the loner. I felt stupid for trying.

The bell rang. The noise making my ears hurt. I wasn't looking forward to seeing Reed anymore. I was looking forward to going home now, as I walk toward my last period of the day. I didn't mind being late.

When I step foot past the doorway of the classroom. The same girls were staring at me. They were gossiping to the others. I rolled my eyes and sat in the back, as usual. I wanted to get out.

My teacher walked in with a flowery shirt, a skin tight short black skirt and pink high heel. Her hair tied back in a bun with pencils in it. I rolled my eyes letting my thoughts drift away. I quickly paid attention as soon as my teacher said, "A field trip."

Questions filled in my mind, when is it? Who am I going with? Where are we going? I was hoping I wouldn't go with Liana and her 'posies', she already made fun of me, I don't want to deal with that on this field trip. I was also hoping Reed would be in my group.

"Ellie" my teachers voice echoed through my head. I quickly snapped out of my thought. "Uh..what?" I answered. Feeling like a fool. "You're in group E" She said.

Group E? Who is in group E? I crossed my fingers. Waiting for them to call Liana's name or even better, Reed's.

I could see him from the corner of my eyes. Flipping his gorgeous blonde hair, making it perfect. I shook my head. I didn't want to feel this way. Not yet. I am way to young. I know when ever my mom loves a guy he ends up hurting her heart. I hate seeing her like that. I heard my teachers voice again. "Liana" She smiled at her. Along did Liana.

Here it comes!

My fingers getting harder to bare. Crossed behind my back.

Say it! I told myself.

"Group A" She finally said. The relief I felt was overwhelming. "Now that you have your groups" my teacher added. "It time you get together, create group name and choose a group leader" She added. She grouped us in different spot Group A, Group B, Group C, Group D and Group E. I saw Reed heading in my direction but he turned around. What? I told myself. He's not in my group. A painful feeling took hold of my body. I saw his eyes, they were also in pain.

Was he thinking he was going to be in my group? Was he thinking of me?

No, he has other friends and he would rather be with them then with me.