ACE (Interracial Romance) Book #1

Chapter 11

"You have an interest in her don't you?"

He jumps. "No!" he moves away from the window before Jaco figures out he was watching them from the window.

"Well why were you watching them?"

He glares at Mickey. "Shut up Mickey!" he snaps.

Mickey shoots him a smug look.

"I have only known of the girl's annoying existence for a week"

Mickey shakes his head. "Ace, buddy..." he starts. "Love comes at any cost and especially anytime. It doesn't matter how long you've known her, you feel how you feel"

"Who made you the love guru and since when have I been in love with her?" he shakes his head. "I don't fall in love." He pushes pass Mickey and moves to the kitchen.

"Stop being in-denial Ason."

Ason spins around to look at him with a harsh look. "Stop telling me how I should feel, Mickey!" he slams his cup onto the counter. "I don't have feelings for Valissa"

"Good because we're going on a date"

Ason looks down at floor and glares. He hated the way Jaco had been acting and all over fucking Valissa! This was absurd! He would not lose his fucking TWIN to a girl!

Mickey's head snaps toward Jaco. "What? You like Valissa?"

Jaco nods and sits on the counter. "Yeah and she said yes to going on a date with me."

Mickey frowns. "But..."

Jaco looks at Mickey. "What Mick? Aren't you happy I finally decided to date someone?"

Mickey nods slowly looking far away; thinking. "Yeah but not Ason's girl" he mumbles.

Ason hears him and shoots him a deadly look. "Mickey shut up! And don't bring that shit up again!" he storms out of the kitchen without getting his juice.

Ason was fed up with everything he goes to his room slamming the door and going to his bathroom, doing what he does best; destroy his life.

He grabs the blade from atop his mirror and observes it before pressing it into the pale skin of his right wrist.

He was thinking about everything as he pulled the blade across his skin. That wasn't enough. He presses against his skin deeper and watches as blood oozed from the fresh wound. He liked to see the color, he loved to feel the pain; it gave him a rush.

He thought of his life before he killed his parents; perfect! He thought about how Mickey had taken the brothers in without second thought and about how he had changed into a total different person. He had loved people, had friends, smiled, laughed... he did thing he just wouldn't, couldn't do now. Then he thought of how the relationship he had with Jaco was going down the drain! All because of some girl. But Valissa wasn't just any girl. She was different, made him actually want to be the Ason that he was before. But he had only known her few two fucking days! There had to be something wrong with him. Well obviously there was he was fucking cutting his wrists up like a fucking tomato. He pulls the blade away from his and inspects it. He would have to wear long sleeves for a while these would scar badly.

He runs his arm under some cold water loving the painful feeling of water against his open cuts.

He needed to change! For the sake of his brothers... hell for the sake of himself. He need help changing back into the Ason that he once was before.

He looks at himself in the mirror and tries to smile but it comes out as a grimace.

How the fuck was it so hard to smile? He needed help and he knew exactly who he would ask for help.

He would call her later and ask but right now he needed a smoke. He walks out of his bathroom after wrapping his arm up and pulling on a long sleeved shirt.

He sits on his window seat opening the window to let the smoke exit.

In walks Mickey. "Hey Ason can we talk?"

"Don't you knock?" he says without looking at him.

"Can we talk?" he asks again.

Ason exhales the smoke. "If it's about Valissa, no"

"But..."

"Mickey, enough!" he turns to him.

Mickey shuts the door and sits on the chaise that was still in the middle of his room. "Why do you not want to talk about her?" He looks at him wondering.

Ason pulls on the cigarette ignoring his brother.

"She makes you feel different, doesn't she?"

He still ignores him.

"She makes you want to be the Ason before Mom and Dad died."

His head snaps in Mickey's direction. How the hell did he know that?

"I'm right aren't I?"

"Shut up"

He shakes his head and runs a hand through his hair. "Holy shit!" he sighs. "The two of you want Valissa Mercer?"

Ason looks at him shooting daggers. "Stop it" he says finishing off his cigarette.

Mickey starts to pace. "I can't believe this..." he looks at Ason and shakes his head. "I can't believe this"

"STOP IT!" Ason yells. "Please just stop it" he says more quietly.

"Why have you not told Jaco?"

"Because he already called dibs." He shrugs. "And I couldn't do that to him."

"You do know that she can only choose one of you, right?"

"Yes and that's why I do as much as I can to push her away... I want Jaco to be happy. I don't want him t hate me. So to do that he can have the girl that we both want." He smiles fondly. "I'll be fine... but Jaco" he laughs humorlessly. "He won't"

Mickey sighs and looks at his youngest brother. "Ace you really are something you know that?"

Ason looks up at him. "Tell Jaco about this and I'll fucking kill you." He says seriously.

Mickey looks at him and nods. "That I do not doubt." He sighs again. "So will you tell Jaco about your feelings for her?"

Ason shakes his head. "No he doesn't need to know. Let him be happy, don't ruin it."

Mickey nods his head and starts for the door.

"I love you, Ason. You might not be able to say it back but I do! Just know that"

Ason nods and watches his oldest brother exit his room and shut the door. He really did love his Jaco and he wouldn't let Valissa destroy that even if he was starting to like her.

Authors note:

Ason cutting on the side. If you have a problem with it then please do not look at it and stop reading now because this story will contain more cutting and depression. Some of you may think that I shouldn't have put it up but honestly I know it may be depressing but it's a part of life and it's something that everyone not just teens do today. ------>