But I'd Like To Learn Your Name (Frerard Fanfic)

Chapter 14

Frank's POV

Gerard's still sleeping when I get up for the last time. I decide to leave him alone and head to the kitchen to make some coffee.

Before I make the coffee I go to the bathroom.

I search through my drawers for my concealer. The only time I wear it is when I got beat up at school. It's been a while since I've used it... Since my freshman year I think. But I've still kept it.

When I rub it on the cut I got last night it feels like ice.

I know it's definitely not good to put makeup on open skin but I can't have mom finding out. I blend it in with a brush and I leave to go to the kitchen.

When I get there I see my mom checking her phone at the table.

Right when I look over she looks up at me. "Did he come back, Frank?"

I nod and reach up into the cabinet for the bag of coffee. "He was in my bed when I woke up. I don't know what time he came though."

My mom doesn't reply but I can tell she acknowledges what I said.

After I start the coffee I sit with mom and wait for it to be done.

I see a black figure in the corner of my eye and I turn around.

"Hi Gerard.", I say.

Mom finally looks up from her phone to look at Gerard, I guess she never saw him "Gerard! You're up! Eat whatever you want and when you're done I want to talk to you.", my mom says eagerly as she puts her phone down.

Gerard glares at me, like he's mad I blew his cover or something. I hope he doesn't hate me even more now.

Last night when we ate dinner was his final breaking point with me I think. I brought up his brother and he gets all pissy and says he didn't want to talk about it and wanted to leave. And I think I just made his impression of me even worse.

Without a word Gerard sits down at the table with us. He stares down at his hands. This must be so awkward for him.

"Aren't you gonna get something to eat, dear?", my mom asks.

Gerard mumbles something but either of us can make it out.

"Sorry, I didn't catch that", mom says as she leans closer to Gerard.

"I don't eat breakfast.", he says this time, louder.

"Well I really think you should eat something, honey.", mom says.

"I'm really not hungry.", he says, still looking down.

Mom shakes her head and mumbles something I can't make out.

The rest of breakfast is awkward. My mind wanders off to what Gerard was doing last night. Maybe he really did get into legal trouble. I can actually imagine that. Him vandalizing, stealing.. I can't imagine him hurting anyone though. What was he doing?

"Frank".

My head shoots up and I look at the person who said it.

"Go to your room so I can talk privately with Gerard."

"Yes ma'am", I say as I push in my chair and leave.

I don't stay around so I can eavesdrop on them or whatever. He deserves his privacy.

I close the door and lay on my bed.

Buzz. Buzz.

I get up and search for my phone. I pick it up. This is Gerard's phone. Should I see who it is?

My mind wanders back to how I didn't want to invade his privacy but I can't help it. What if it's something important..?

It was a text. I slide the notification and scroll through his texts. I feel terrible right now.

It starts at a new conversation, but it starts at something completely random. He must've deleted all his texts or something.

Bert: I miss you

Gerard: miss you too <3

Bert: <3

Gerard: <3

Bert: <3

Gerard: <3

Bert: I know this is just gonna go on forever so I'm just gonna change the topic.

Bert: how's that snobby kid you're supposed to live with treating you?

Snobby kid? What? I keep on scrolling, eager to what Gerard says about me.

Gerard: meh. I just want to get out of here.

Bert: yeah I understand.

Gerard: yeahhh...

Bert: do you think you could sneak out to come and see me?

Gerard: can't. I snuck out tonight and I know that little brats mom is gonna be on my tail. When she gets out of my business and just fucks off I'll come and see you.

Bert: can't wait then ;)

Gerard: me either babe

I stop there. There's way more texts, but I'm doubting if I should read the rest. I was originally going to read the most recent one but I don't want to get more mad at Gerard than I already am.

I'll just read the most recent one. That's all.

I scroll until I reach the bottom.

It hurt me to read what he said about my mom. Even though it wasn't much he just sounded like that we both are just getting in the way. We probably are its just the way he said it I guess... I don't really know how to explain it. I'm not even really making sense to myself right now.

Bert. Who's that? I never thought Gerard was gay. At least dating him is a possibility now. He wouldn't want someone like me though.

I put his phone back where I found it and lay back in bed.

I don't really know what to write after that lol. Sorry if this is too cheesy or stupid or whatever. IM ONLY 13!! (Johnnie Guilbert reference anyone?) Um well bye, I just made this super awkward...

Gold steps by Neck Deep

~Abikitty Asylum