But I'd Like To Learn Your Name (Frerard Fanfic)

Chapter 15

Okay, so I'm just gonna make a quick authors note to say this is Gerard's POV. And yea I know THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE FRONKEH'S POV BUT GUESS WHAT ITS NOT! Okay bye enjoy the chapter :)

Gerard's POV

"You can't afford anything else. You've already messed up your life.", Mrs. Iero said.

Wow, that stung. I was supposed to live with her because my parents gave up on me and now she does? I'm such a fuck up.

I can't even really think of a time that I was proud of myself. I can't think of a time anyone else has been proud of me. Nobody thinks I'm useful. Nobody thinks I'm special. Nobody thinks I'm-

"Gerard. Focus.", Mrs. Iero says as she snaps her fingers in front of my face.

"What are you thinking about when you sneak out? That you're going to run away? Party? Do you think that I don't know that you sneak out?"

Yea I know.

"Gerard, honey I'm not mad at you I'm just disappointed."

God, she sounds like one of those parents in cheesy movies.

I haven't even said anything during this whole conversation, wow. Is it even a conversation if only one person's talking? Actually yea, probably. People have conversations with their pets all the time. Having pets are actually so messed up. Like what if a dog owned a human? That's just-

"Really Gerard? I'm trying to talk to you. Now I see why your parents gave you to me. You give up to easily. You don't believe in yourself or others."

You sound like my old psychiatrist. She quit.

"But I believe in you Gerard. And I'm glad your parents gave me the opportunity to help you."

I don't really know how to feel about that. She might actually be telling the truth.

You know she's lying.

The only people I can think of that's actually helped me through all this bullshit is Bert and Mikey. But I can't turn to Mikey anymore. He let me go. He's too scared to do anything for me. Bert's not.

I've only known him for a couple of months though. And he's always been there those couple of months. We've only been dating for a month. It's been the best month of my life. Minus all the shit with my family and stuff but thats besides the point.

I met Bert through this guy named Zach who sells me alcohol when I can't get it at home. Zach took me to a party and I met Bert. He offered to buy me a beer and ever since beer's been my poison of choice. We've been inseparable ever since then. I've felt even worse now that I haven't been able to see him. All because of this stupid situation.

My mind lets me go to face reality and get me out of my thoughts.

I look up at Mrs. Iero. She's talking to me but I can't understand her. I've seemed to block everything out. It's like the teacher in Charlie Brown. All I hear is noise. No words.

She's walking away now. I guess I can walk away too..?

I try walking away as best I can. It's blurry too. It feels like I'm drunk, but I'm not. I haven't had a drink or a smoke since... Since when Frank first met me in the cemetery. I'm not having another withdrawal am I?

I can't. I'm not.

My hands shake as I open the door to Frank's bedroom.

"Gerard?", he asks as he looks up from a book. Our eyes lock for a split second before I run into the bathroom.

I slam the door shut and lock it. I wretch into the toilet until I think I've vomited all my guts. I flush it and lean my head against the wall. I run a hand through my greasy hair and try to stay calm even though I'm still shaking and my legs feel like lead. I need to call Bert.

"Frank, give me my phone!", I croak out, nearly to a whisper.

"I can't the doors locked! Unlock it!", Frank exclaims.

"Just slide it under the godamn door!", I try to scream out. My voice is as hoarse as ever.

Frank does and I shakily grab it from the floor. I don't have to even dial his number all I have to do is just push a button. On the fourth ring he picks up.

"Hey, Gerard. What's up?", he says on the other line. He actually sounds sober this time. That's good.

"I'm fucking scared, Bert.", I whisper unintentionally.

There's a little pause before Bert says something, "Baby what's wrong?"

"I don't know!", I say frustrated. I look back down at my shaking hand and close my eyes. I do know what's happening I'm just too embarrassed to admit it.

There's another pause, this time longer. "I'm coming over there."

"What?!", I exclaim, "You can't!"

"And why not?", he asks.

"Why do you think? Little dickhead and his mom are home! You can't come!"

Another pause. "Where do they live?"

Part of me wants to tell him and another part of me doesn't. I know he'll help me once he comes but what about Frank and Linda? I know what I'm going to do. They can both just suck it up.

I sigh into the phone, "6657 union avenue."

"Okay Gee, stay there I'm coming."

MCR IS NOT GETTING BACK TOGETHER AND I HAVE LOST MY WILL TO LIVE! On a side note if you're wondering (which none of you probably are because this is a boring ass book) but YA I KNOW BERT AND GEE ARE DATING and YA I KNOW THIS IS A FRERARD FIC! But I have everything planned out so you don't need to worry lolz. Thanks for reading and voting!

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