Lay Me Down

Part 10

There was no argument, no fight, no yelling. I woke up and Simon was gone along with all his stuff. A part of me was relieved that he left with no goodbye but I was also heartbroken because the love I have for him has no comparing. Should I call him or should I wait and see if he contacts me? My heart was racing and all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry and pretend this was all just a bad dream. But it wasn't. Simon was gone and I didn't know if he was ever going to come back. All I have is Louie and in the end I guess that's all I need. He's my one constant. I knew though that I needed my best friend right now more than anything.
'Hello...'
'Laura....' I said trying my best not to cry.
'Babe, what's wrong? Are you okay?'
The tears flowed down my face. 'Can you come over?'

Within minutes Laura was busting through my front door while I was laying on the sofa. I couldn't bare to be in my room because it reminded me to much of Simon. Even though I could still smell him on the sofa it didn't hurt as much. Everything in my house reminded me of him and a single thought just destroyed me. Were we over? I wasn't sure. All I knew was that the person I loved more than anything wasn't here and might not return. Laura rushed over to me and threw her arms around me in the tightest hug. I don't know if it's because I was relieved to see her or because I was so miserable but I burst into more tears and they wouldn't stop. All that was going through my mind was, how could this happen. Did I not make him happy? Was it all too much for him? So many questions that I didn't know if I would ever get answers to.
I knew I could count on Laura though to make me feel better. She always had a way of making my problems her problems and my sadness her sadness. She knew when to listen and let me vent and when to give her advice. She knew when I needed to just get out and forget my responsibilities and when I needed to act like a grown up and do my work right. That's why she was my best friend. Without her right now I would probably be off my face drunk or more miserable than I am now.

I didn't quite know what I was doing. I just packed all my things and left. There was no goodbye or words said, which made me feel even more confused. Should I have woken her up or stayed till morning? I wasn't sure. I just knew that my whole world was spinning and I was caught between facing the music and going back to the one person I loved or living with regret and leaving her forever. This was all too much for me. As I kept driving all that played through my mind were memories of us. I needed her. I wanted her. But was it too late? Could I salvage this relationship before she gave up completely? Everybody has fights but it's the couples that stick together through them that make it forever. That's what I wanted with Adele... forever. Before I knew it I had driven for five hours and ad no idea were I was. I just needed to get back to Adele as soon as possible. Should I call to make sure she's there? What if she doesn't want to see me? What if she's relieved that I'm gone? All of a sudden I started to doubt going back to her. It was like my mind was playing tricks on me and I couldn't make my own decisions.

I pulled over the car and rain started pouring out of the sky. It wasn't that unusual considering how much it rains in London but I wanted to believe it was a sign that I needed to think things over before doing anything. But it didn't help. Adele was the only thing on my mind and I desperately needed to know if she felt the same way about me. As I sat in the car and watched the rain hit the Windows, I started to think of my life before. Before I met Adele I had never been this happy. I had never been more excited to wake up each morning and see new things and meet new people. Before everything was a routine and things that had to be done. Sure, my daughter is the greatest thing in my life but when I wasn't with her what was my purpose. Everything I did was for Georgie and I loved my company and helping people but was that all my life had to offer me. Was I just going to be a single dad forever? Adele showed me that there was more to life without even trying. With her I felt alive again. But how could I make this up to her? She's probably devastated right now, crying her eyes out to Laura. She's probably thinking this was all her fault and torn up on the inside. This wasn't her fault at all, it was all mine. I was being an asshole and could potentially lose the best thing that has ever happened to me. As thoughts kept appearing I suddenly felt tears rushing down my face. I couldn't stop them and I didn't want too. I had to do something. I needed to tell Adele that I was sorry and that I loved her. Would she forgive me? Or did I already miss my chance? 'Please God let her still love me.' I kept repeating. What was I thinking running away? It was time I owned up to this huge mistake and made everything right again. Adele needed to know how I felt and that this was never a break up and more than anything I just wanted to be in her arms again. As fast as I could I dialed Adele's number in hopes she would answer.

'Hello...'