Love ,Hate

Getting ready To Move

I cries myself to sleep last night.I just felt miserable ans misused.I felt like no one needed me here.I just want to be with Taella again.My grandma and Taella are probably watching me right now.

They are probably disappointed in me.Slowly opened up the cabinet while my children slept peacefully.The head was throbbing.Should I do it or Should I not.

Just as I was about to swallow 5 vicodin a knock was on the door.I opened to see Bri "mommy its gone be okay I promise you have me and Teej here for you,daddy we dont need him we have you dont be sad cause we love you okay" she said I smiled and picked her up "you love me" I asked her "to infinity and beyond" she added I kissed all over her face she giggled "now make some breakfast woman,my brother hungry" she said I laughed and took her downstairs with her on my back and Tj in my arms.

I sat them on the couch "wanna big breakfast cause I want a big breakfast and I want yall to help me..wanna help momma" I asked them they laughed.

"Tj get the eggs,and cheese.Bri get the milk and bacon while I strt he pancakes" I told them they did as was told.I cracked the eggs and mixes everything in them and let Tj stir it sitting on the counter.

I laid the bacon on the pan while I let Bri make the pancake mix.We turned on some music and instantly I my ass happy.

We added biscuts and waffles with Grits.All this stuff didnt even go togther  but we said big breakfast.They ate and then I got them washed up.

While they were getting ready,I called my boss and asked them could I work from.home half the week.They confirmed after I told them about the kids and they had no problem.

I dressed them black true religion jeans and a white obey shirt with some 11's.I put on the same outfit and curled my hair.

"lets go to the bounce house" Bri asked I just loaded my purse and car then we headed out.Once we got our

shoes off and wristbands we all bounced up in down.The kids were flipping and jumping.

We all played and chased eachother around thd bounce house laughing

Like there was no tomorrow.After TJ wanted to go to Cj Barrymores.I still had work to finish.

So when we got there we played on the go carts,they rock climbed,played games then we ate pizza and went home.They was downstairs playing the PS3 and I was up in my room  working.

During my work process,I thought about moving or rebuilding this house.Then getting dogs again and having more room for the kids to play.I want this done soon so I dialed my dad "hello... dad look this house needs to be redone,and i need money I have some but not enough for my dream house" I said he laughed "okay well Imma add 5 mil to yo account for furniture and shit"he said I smiled "okay thankd daddy"I said hanging up.

I finished my work and then put it in a file "BABIES" I yelled and they ran upstairs "want a new house" I asked them.They was beyound happy

"oohhh ma can I have a big room with a rim and a big bed and a big tv with a computer and ooooo a lot of stuff" Tj said jumpinh on my bed I giggled "oh and I can have a pink princess bed with glass windows and a computer with a tv and a bathroom of my own... ohh and it all can be hello kitty" Bri said happy.

"Tae loved hello kitty her room was hello kitty and everything. I see you guys are excited but we gone have to stay in a hotel for some time to get it rebuilt" I told them they just shrugged it off. "so no practice" Tj asked "yes your going to practice ny money aint going to waste" I assured them.

They didnt really seem to care so I dialed up my constructor.I told him everything I wanted the hluse to have and he told me it would take 5-8 months and cost about 3.5 mil.

I was good with that.Beauty takes time.So I told them to get started tomorrow, and that we would be out by tonight.

"come on children" I told them "pack your clothes and toys and put them in these boxes" I tell them.

Now I have to pack.I put my clothes and shoes in boxes.Then work and valuables next.I went down to my truck and put the boxes in the trunk.

"finished with clothes" TJ yelled and I walked into his room picking up his box and placing it by the door.

"now get some toys and all the stuff you want to bring"I told them getting pictures off the walls and placing them in boxes.My phone rung and it was Christian "hello" I answered still doing placing stuff in boxes "you okay" he asked me "yes I am thankd for everything by the way" I told him closing the box and putting it by the door.

"its all good,but you was scaring me yesterday when you started crying and shit" he said causing me to giggle "well.. sometimes crying is the only way to get it out" I tell him.

The conversation continued.We finally finished and had the Truck loaded.We went to a hotel in the city "um I would like to stay here until my house gets finished up" I explained everything and purchased my stays worth and walked up to my room.

I let the kids stay up there while they gave me a key to a safe  storage then went back to my room.