Love ,Hate

Hate

I woke up on my couch in my outfit from last night.Drea was beside me."wake up drea move." I told her she didn't nudge so I kicked her off the couch.She fell and her ass was up then.I went to the kitchen and started looking for something to cook.

After I decided on a breakfast casserole, I showered put my underwear, and a pair of trues, with a stripped polo and my timbs.Aye, Im crispy biotch, lol I made breakfast then drove to Travis house.With all my might I tried not to kill this bitch.Travis opened the door "really?" he asked "you show yo ass out in public" he said to me I looked at him like he was stupid "who the fuck you talkin to" I yelled at him " I came here cause my kids don't like the bitch and as a fucking father you supposed to go by yo fuckin kids,not some bitch and before you come at me in any type of disrespectful way check yo bitch" I calmly spoke to him he eyed me "don't disrespect no fucking body in my household understood" he said sternly "fuck you, fuck yo household, and fuck that bitch you sleepin with understood, oh and if my kids don't want to be here anymore they will not be coming" I told him going around him "Bri, Tj come on" I yelled they came downstairs and I gave Bri the keys to open the car.

"are you serious" he asked "as a heart attack" I simply replied to him.He looked at me in my eyes "you would take my kids away from me" he asked sincerely "if they don't want them to come then I wont make them" I told him "can we talk" he asked "now you want to talk, well I don't have time to talk to you I would rather talk to Travis you I don't know who you are" I said snatching away and getting in my car.

Travis has changed over this past year, he always used to put the kids first before anyone, he let this lifestyle get the best of him.And Im not taking no bullshit from him.We pulled up at the house and fed my children.

They bathed and cleaned themselves "we have to go to the barbers for your haircut TJ and Bri you got to get your hair trimmed lets go" I yelled and they came down with their phones.Kids these days.Bri hair was longer than it looked, it stopped damn near at the bottom of her back, they cut it to the middle of her back and said it would grow faster and easier.She had it pressed and flat ironed.TJ had his normal fade with his curls on top of his head.

They finished and wanted to go to the park.I let them run around for an hour then picked up some of their school friends and let them play in the backyard.While I had a nice glass of wine.Christian asked to come through and I said yea, so he was on his way.He came after like 1 hour or more.We played 2k14 as the kids ran around the back playing with jeeps,bikes, and all their other toys.The pool lock was on so I was good.

He beat me "so what I just got it so I got to break it in" I told him he laughed "what time is it" I asked him"12:30" he said "wanna help me make nachos for the kids" I asked "do I get a plate" he said I laughed and headed for the kitchen.My phone rung while I was stirring the meat "can you get that" I asked him not caring who it was and he answered.

When he handed me the phone "who is it" I asked "some nigga named Travis he talking cash money shit but I aint gone say nothing" he said into the phone but to me.I knew he was gone be pissed after that and laughed then snatched my phone "what" I asked "you got n-'

 CLICK!

Hung up on his ass.We finished the nachos and had the kids eat.Then he started playin with all of the little kids.They all beat his ass.While they were distracted I did the dishes and had another glass of wine.I checked my email and seen some extra paperwork,so  I started on that then sent it back to the main office.

I walked into the living room to see all of the little ones knocked out "how did yo-" "gifted hands" he said tickling me."okay okay my stomach hurt stop" I told him he chuckled and looked at me "you gone help me put them upstairs" I asked "yea sure" he picked up one kid "put the boys in TJ room and girls in Bri room" I yelled and got Bri and Tj up "go to your beds" I told them.THen picked up another kid and took her to Bri room.

Put some blankets down covered them up,now I was tired."im so sleepy" I nagged "we go work out tomorrow?" he said I looked at him "uhh sure" I told him he laughed "well go to sleep" he said I smiled and walked him to the door."thanks again" I hugged him then let him go.

Soon as I closed the door, someone knocked I opened and Travis pushed his way in "WHERE THE HELL ARE MY KIDS" he yelled scaring the hell out of me.My ass went from sleepy as hell to fucking scared that I was in hell. "TRAVIS GET OUT MY DAMN, HOUSE" I yelled at him standing in front of him.

"YOU CANT TAKE MY KIDS FROM ME ARIEL I WONT LET YOU FUCK UP MY WHOLE LIFE,MORE THAN YOU ALREADY HAVE" he yelled and it made me hurt.Like I wanted to ball up and cry, those words hurt me.How could you say something like that.I looked at him in his eyes,but it wasn't Travis that I seen.That tear fell and I just silently cried as I watched him.

"fuck up your life? when I met you it was instant drama and I stayed there, through thick and thin then you broke up with me and I still had love for yo ass, and when I get back with you you fill my head up with all this shit we gone get married have this have that and cheated on me, IM done with you and your baby momma yo child everything that has to do with you, get out my house" I cried to him pushing back with anger in my face but sadness in my eyes.

"YOU NOT TAKIN MY KIDS" he yelled "travis leave" I cried he didn't. "fuck it, you know what fuck It imma handle it the easy way" I told him grabbing my cell phone the operator picked up " I have a person in my house who will not leave, there is verbal abuse going on and I would like for him to leave can you please send a dispatch here" I asked "okay ma'am address?" she asked I recited it to her while Travis just went on and on.

"that's okay Travis yo ass is gone get the fuck outta here one way or another" I sat on my couch watching him. "please just don't take my kids" he begged nicely.The tears came again " Travis I called the cops" I confessed "why would you do that" he yelled standin over me "just go they are coming to remove you from my property, why don't you leave us alone" I asked him he punched a hole in my wall then walked out the house pissed.

My hands were shaking, and I was just all emotions balled up in one.Why did I have to do this shit to myself.