Anorexia - My Story (Fiction)

The Weigh In

I have surprisingly been lonely. No one in this house gets me nervous. I have Maddy over all the time now. (😏😉)

My alarm clock went off and ruined my train of thoughts. I took it and slammed it to the ground, I didn't want to go to my weigh in. I managed to get myself out of bed and hopped in the shower. When I finished I had realized I left my towel in my bedroom - thank god I lived alone. I quickly went to my room, got my towel, and ran back to the bathroom. It felt strange to walk around naked.

I was in the bathroom when I was about to slip the towel around my body when my reflection caught my eye in the mirror. I couldn't stand looking at myself. I felt ugly. My pale face and always tired eyes matched well with my skinny, boney body. You could easily see my ribs and my stomach was too flat. My legs were brittle and stick like, just like my arms. I quickly cover myself with the towel and dried myself off.

I finished getting ready and walked downstairs. It was 10:30, my appointment was at 11:15, so I had some time. I looked at the fridge and took a big sigh.

"I have to eat something," I muttered to myself.

I went in the fridge and took out some eggs, I cracked two eggs in a frying pan and scrambled them. I held in my gagging reflexes as it cooked. I sat down at the tables and picked at my eggs. I didn't want to eat.

It was 10:50 so I dumped my food in the garbage and left. I couldn't take that smell anymore.

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"Roseanne Parker, the doctor will see you now," and nurse motioned me in a room. I got up and followed her instructions.
"Dr. Johnson will be here in a moment," I nodded my head as she left the room.

I tapped my foot and was on Instagram looking at all of the beautiful models wishing I was them. I sighed. Just as I turned my phone off I heard the door open and came through Dr. Johnson.

"Hello Roseanne, How is it going?" he said as he went to wash his hands in the sink sitting in the corner of the room.
"I'm doing alright." I lied. I lost a lot of weight over the course of two weeks.
"Great," he said as he was drying his hands. "How have your migraines been?"
"They've been fine, I only had two this week."
"Good, good." He said while sitting in his wheely chair and stared at his file that was left on the small desk.
"It says here you were 110, correct?"
"Last time, yes," I said nervously.
"I normal weight for a women 5'6 is 120. What do you believe you weight now?"
"Well um..." I didn't know what to say, "I'm not exactly sure, maybe 100-115? I made my answer what he wanted to hear. Even if it wasn't true.
"If you could take off your shoes and take a step on the scale please," he said gesturing his hand to the scale. My worst enemy.
"Of c-course." I stiffened and I also noticed I stuttered.

I slowly took of my shoes and made my way over to the scale. I closed my eyes hard and waited for him to speak.

"96.4 lbs" he stated with confusion in his voice and wrote it down in the file.

I quickly stepped off the scale, put on my shoes, and made my way over to my seat. Dr. Johnson looked and me and adjusted his glasses.

"Roseanne, are you dieting or doing excessive exercising of any kind?"
"No, not at all." I said trying to sound confident, I guess it kind of worked.
"You have lost a lot of weight in a short period of time," he said, stating the obvious. "Tell me what exactly is going on with you and food."
I gulped and explained everything truthfully. I really did want to get better and finish school and put this all behind me.

"Okay, I'm having a nurse take your vitals and I'll be back once I see those results." He said blankly and left the room.

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Here's a quick chapter for you, sorry it isn't much or that interesting but next chapter will be better!!
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