Anorexia - My Story (Fiction)

Broken

  

I looked at myself in the mirror, hating my appearance. I cried, sobbed. I grabbed my razor and slashed my wrist twice, Then cried harder. I dropped the razor and stared at my blood. The tears in my eyes threatening to spill, I stared at the blood dripping in the sink. Why did it have to come to this? I was shaking from my anxiety, I felt scared of myself, of what I could do. I let the tears release from my eyes. I sat on the counter and sobbed, still watching the blood trickle down into the sink. I stayed like this for another 30 minutes, just crying and crying.

I finally managed to stop crying and bandaged my wrist up. This wasn't the first time this happened. I wiped the tears from face and washed my face. I looked at my face, I wasn't myself. My normally big, hazel green eyes looked dark, red and puffy. My face was flushed and red. I sighed and left the bathroom.

   Derek was there on his bed on his phone, as usual. He glanced up at me, and we made eye contact and he stood up, I ignored him and walked over to my dresser thing and pulled out some sweats and socks, I would grab one of Derek's sweatshirts from the closet. When I turned around Derek was standing right behind me. I sighed and was about to walk past him when he stepped to the side, not letting me through.

   "What do you want?" I spoke impatiently.

   He sighed, "Your wrist, I'm worried," he gently picked up my wrist and looked at the bandage. I didn't move my hand, he hadn't talked to me in days.

   He looked back at me, worry in his hazel eyes, "Rose, talk to me, please,"

   "Did the doctor tell you to talk to me? I don't need it." I was about to walk away when he stopped me. Again

   "No, Rose, you don't understand I'm very worried about you, and I can't help myself, I need to know-"

    "Need to know what?! You don't need to know anything! It's not like you care.."

   "Rose, yes I do! I think about you all the time, I'm so nervous what's going to happen to you, I want to help,"

   "You can't. So stop trying,"

    "Yes I can, I know it." He pulled me into a tight hug and we stayed there for a while.

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   Since I've gotten the news, nothing has gotten better, hell, it's worse. My family feels like they have vanished, it's like they've never existed. Bills are piling up from staying in the unit, since my job can only pay so much. Counselor and this 'class' sucks, no improvement. Depression is taking over my body, making me rebellious. I barely speak with Derek anymore. I thought I liked him. He doesn't matter anymore. Nothing does. Everything I thought I loved, turned on me, school in particular. I haven't been studying as well as I should be. I can't and I won't. I don't believe in myself anymore.

   Thoughts hit me like truck. So did a migraine. My vision blurred, and I fell into a pit of darkness.

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Authors note:

HELLO PEEPS

sorry for the delay in making this chapter, it's been busy.

THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THE READS! it means the most to me

This chapter may be a bit confusing to some, but it works best for the upcoming chapters:)

Depression takes over in her mind, making her confused, scared, and making her self harm. This is ruining her in every way, will she make it out?

Let's find out;)

See you in the next chapter, Bye!