Just pretend. | l.h.

Chapter 42 ~ Leaving.

((Song of the chapter: Heathens by Twenty One Pilots AND Girls Talk Boys by 5SOS because YAAASSS))

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ADDIE'S POV

"Dammit Addie we don't have time to do this! I love you! Don't you get it, I want us to work out. I care about you more than I care about my career, my fans, even myself!" Luke pours his heart out to me. I love him so much, probably more than he even loves me.

"And Luke that's exactly what scares me with all of this. I am not worth you potentially having to give all of that up. I'm just plain old Addie. The small town girl with a hell of a lot of baggage that no one should have to deal with or give things up for. I'm broken and I don't need you putting your life on the line to try and fix me."

"You don't understand that this, heck you are all I can think about right now. You are all that I want and care about right now!"

"No, you need to be focused on your career, not me."

"You can't tell me where my focus should be because it isn't where it is."

"Well, Luke I don't know what to tell you, frankly, because as much as I want to say yes to you I simply can't. Unfortunately I'm going home with my mom in a bit and so this is going to have to be goodbye." I let a single tear fall from my eye. I know I am a very emotional person but now is not the time.

"Shit, Addie really? You're just going to leave just like that?" 

"Luke I have to. I am not asking for your thoughts on my decision." Luke tugs at his hair in frustration.

"But it's not your decision, it's your mom's!"

"Remember how I'm still a minor? That has a lot to do with this. I just need to go home for now." Luke looks defeated and honestly I how he looks, I feel ten times worse. The bullshit I am professing is just that. I love him and don't want to go home. Heck, I know going home is a terrible decision, but it's the easy way out decision. "You know that this doesn't mean that the way I feel about you is any different, right?" I shyly say.

Luke's eyes slightly brighten, "And you know the same goes for me." He pulls me into a tight squeeze. I swear this boy is stronger than he may appear. We stand there in silence embracing each other and cherishing being with each other. Luke pulls back a little eventually and places a soft kiss on my forehead. I'm going to miss that. I look up to him and our eyes meet. Luke is holding back tears and at this point I'm letting them fall. "Addie, don't cry. This is not a goodbye, it's a see ya later," Luke says in a sing-songy way.

I burst out into laughter, "Luke Robert you did not just say that! Puke in my mouth you cheese ball!" I stand on my tip toes and steal a kiss from the tip of his nose. You know, just cute couple things that I wont be able to do in 10 minutes. Luke is half smiling now. "Okay, want to help me shove the rest of my crap in my bags?"

Luke inhales deeply, "I suppose." I hand Luke my backpack and instruct him to put my notebooks and other things on my desk in it along with all of my chargers and laptop. While he works on that I work on my drawers and closet. I carefully fold each item of clothing wanting to take in my time left here in L.A.. 

"Be right back, I have to grab my makeup and hair stuff from the bathroom." I leave Luke alone and head to the bathroom. Yes, I started balling in the bathroom and yes I do cry a heck of a lot but I am a very emotional teenage girl what do you expect. I get my shit together, throw my shit in my bag, and walk back to my shitty situation in my room. Correction, my soon to be old room. Luke has my backpack all zipped up and ready to go next to my suitcases. This is really happening.

Luke is looking at me and I try not to look at him, eyes glued to my hands per usual. I don't want to face the reality of the choice I just made only but a few minutes ago. I take a seat next to him on the floor and simply intertwine my fingers in his. I rest my head on his shoulder and we just sit there in each others' presence. The only thing on my mind is him. My love for this boy will never die, how could it? 

"You know, I really hate you right now," Luke states.

"I know and I don't blame you."

"But I also really love you." He places a kiss on top of my head.

"I know."

There's a knock on the door and a curly haired Aussie walks in.

"Sorry for interrupting, but your mom is here," Ashton reluctantly tells us.

I quickly get to my feet and gather my bags. Luke, too, gets up and hands Ash my suitcases giving him a look. Ashton seems to understand and brings them downstairs and leaves Luke and I alone. 

"Addie, I don't want to go down there with you. I can't see you walk out that door with your mom, so I am going to need to say goodbye now up here."

"Oh, okay." We both stand there, neither one of us wanting to make the move. "Well.."

"I guess this is goodbye for now," Luke says.

"Yup."

"I really hate this."

"Me too."

"Goodbye Addie, my love." Luke pulls me into a tight embrace before placing a tender kiss on my cheek. 

"Goodbye Luke."

"You better text me as soon as you board your plane and as soon as you get home."

"Don't worry, I will."

"And call me. Wait, better yet facetime me so I can see your beautiful face."

"Okay, Luke whatever you say," I let a half giggle out.

Luke gives me a good kiss on the lips before I reluctantly walk out of the door leaving the man of my dreams behind it. I walk down the stairs one last time taking in the permanent  pizza and sweat scent of the LA home. Calum, Ashton, and Michael are waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs with open arms ready to give me goodbye hugs. I embrace each of them not wanting let go of any of them. I am going to miss these boys more than they will ever imaging.

"Okay  ready to go? All of your bags are in the car," Mother plainly states.

"Sure." I wave goodbye to my friends and leave the house where I found my home.

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