Joel's P.O.V
'Losing her was blue like I'd never known
Missing her was dark grey all alone
Forgetting her was like trying to know somebody you never met'
Everyday I regret loosing her.
She means everything to me, it sucks to see another guy making her happy.
I hate seeing her in another guys arms, holding her. Making her happy.
Probably happier than I ever made her.
I screwed up. My job, my actions aren't the same anymore.
I'm not the same anymore.
"Hey baby, how did you sleep?" Barbie said.
She looks like a Barbie, she's fake.
I occasionally sleep around with random girls to get my mind off Sel.
It never works though. I hook up with one girl, not even knowing her name, and then I promise to call but never do.
Call me a fuckboy but I will never be the same without Sel.
"Uh yeah. Look I have to go, I'll see you soon." I said and left.
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I went inside my apartment. I plugged in my earphones to my Mac an continued the song I've been working on.
Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
'Cause baby I didn't
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me
That should be me
You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're takin' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know that
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me
I need to know, should I fight for love or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart
That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that
That should be me
Holding your hand
That should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
That should be me
That should be me giving you flowers
That should be me
Talking for hours that should be me, that should be me
That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
I'm never gonna let you go
oh-oh-oh-ohh
I have been working on this song for years now. I can't believe I finally finished it.
Music has always helped me ever since she left me.
This has definitely been a hard song to write.
It expresses how I felt in the beginning and how I feel now.
I just want her back.
I may not be perfect but I thought me and her were perfect together...
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