Treat You Better { S.M }

06

" tell me why are we waisting time on all  your wasted crying when you should be with me instead".

Skip school day .

Pain, it's a feeling that people tell you to take pain killers to sooth the pain but it always comes crawling back wether you like it or not.

It's currently 4 am and I can't sleep .

" That's it" I whispered out and got out of my bed grab a pack of cigarettes.

I choose one and take my lighter out to the balcony so it can mix with fresh air. I put it between my fingers and into my mouth .

lighting the cigarette i take a drag out of it and  breathe out the chemicals that seem to take away the pain in a snap of fingers.

Yes I know smoking is bad blah blah blah .

But it won't hurt anyone if they don't  know right ?

" You know you shouldn't  be smoking this late at night ". I turn around to see Shawn standing behind me .

" I know Shawn but I just can't stop its taking away the pain ". I said the last part in a whisper tone

" Aubrey give me the cigarette ". He said sternly

Shawn tried getting it from my finger tips .

" Shawn stop ". I said quietly trying to not wake my parents up .

" Aubrey smoking isn't gonna solve anything ". He said anger . That when Shawn got ahold of the cigarette and threw it on the ground and stepped on it .

I looked at him... Shawn has never been this angry towards me ..

" Shawn it's my life I can do whatever the fuck I want with it and you can't stop me ". I scream/whisper

" It is your life Aubrey but do you see how shitty it has become you are dating a person that beats you every single day if that's the life you want then fine with me don't come crying to me when he leave you ". He spat

I made eye contact with him and said something I've never said to him before .

" Get Out ". I spat

I've never been so mean to someone in my whole life . But Shawn took it too far

" what "!? He said

" I said get out ". Through gritted teeth

His face softened and then just like that his face harden again .

" Fine ". He walk to the side of the balcony to where the stairs are and left .

I watched as he left .

Great I push everyone I care about away ....

I feel a warm tear roll down my cheek .

I push away the tears .... Maybe if I just disappear all of this would just go away . I wouldn't have to hurt people anymore ..

( Shawn's pov )

I know I shouldn't have said that but she's waisting her time crying over a guy that doesn't deserve her .

I had to get it off my chest ... But if he does leave her i should have told her I would be there for her ... But instead I had to be a dickhead and say shit I didn't mean .

" Ugh fuck I need to apologize ".
I turn around but it's to late I need to get home .

First thing tomorrow I'll apologize...

When I get home I walk over to where my notebook is and flip to the page that says "Treat You Better ". And I write down

" Tell me why are we wasting time
On all your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead ".
I sang in a low voice so I wouldn't wake up my parents and my sister .

After I finish writing that I put my song book away and got into my bed were Leo is waiting for me .  And fell asleep

Hopefully she forgives me ....

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