Adopted? | Andy Biersack

Twenty Nine

What's your favourite song from The Shadow Side? Mine is either The Void or Ribcage. :)
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It was late and I was just laying in bed thinking about hanging out with Cody the following day. He's so nice, and we're so alike it's crazy. I've known him for what, a day? how can I already be catching feelings for this guy?
But I have come to the conclusion that you can't escape your own feelings, so I guess I have to admit that I do have a little crush on him. Okay, a big crush.
He just seems to make my world slow down for once because everything is always so fast paced and it's nice to have someone to relate to. I haven't really had a friendship like this with anyone other than Reed, who I haven't talked to in days. Weeks almost. I really, really miss him. But he's too busy with his own life to even notice my existence anymore and it's really getting me down. It's like losing a brother.
Maybe I'll confront him about it tomorrow.
My thoughts ended up tiring me out and I was out like a light.
The Next Day.
I had set my alarm (stupidly) for 9am the next day because I wanted to wake up to take a shower and get ready to hang out with Cody. Much to my surprise, I walked out and Reed was still on the bus. I took my chance and sat next to him on the couch.
"Hey, how are you?" I asked.
No reply.
"Uh, reed?"
Still, nothing. I can't deal with his shit anymore. I have to say something to him.
"What the fuck has gotten into you lately? Too wrapped up in your girlfriend to notice anything fucking else in your life?" I spoke, almost a little too loudly.
"Who the fuck gave you the right to insult my relationship!" He yelled back, the anger rising in his face.
"One, I didn't fucking insult your relationship! And two, I'm not the only one who has noticed a change in you. You are too careless to even notice the Juliet has moved to our bus, I'm barely around anymore. You don't even notice how upset you make people on a daily basis!" I shouted. I've been bottling up my emotions towards him, and to be honest it felt really good to be finally getting it out.
"Yeah? Well maybe I'm fucking sick of dealing with you! Everyone is! You're such a fucking problem and you've always got some issue! Not every single thing has to be about you!"
This stung. How dare he say this about me. But, I guess it's true. I'm the problem kid, I always have been. Why would anyone want me around?
Without thinking I ran off the bus, in my short pj shorts and a singlet top, it the fresh morning. With tears streaming down my face I ran as fast as my ugg boot clad legs would take me. I heard shouts in the distance that sounded like Andy, he must have walked in on the fight without me noticing. I don't even care, all I can think about is getting away from Reed. I don't think I can ever face him again. How can someone be so horrible to someone who has been there for them through everything?
I had made it to a small grass clearing near the venue almost twenty minutes later. I just sat down in the middle of the clearing, completely defeated, and I cried. I cried my heart out because every single word cut into me like a knife. And worst of all, I believed everything he said.