Ceylan's pov
I didn't want her to know, I didn't want her to worry. I just thought it would be better if she would forget me. She's everything to me, my world, but now my world is broken. She's gone from my life and my life is over....
Your pov
I can't believe this, he broke up with me the day after Valentine's Day, was it all just an act? Does he truly love me? Or is he just using me
Little do you know how I'm breaking when you fall asleep
Am I just a toy to him?
Little do you know I'm still haunted my the memories
Did he mean it when he confessed to me that day?
Flashback~
December 24
The earth was covered in soft white flakes that just kept falling and falling You stood there waiting for the blue haired boy to talk, You honestly thought he wouldn't so You turned to leave " wait!" The boy screamed, grabbing onto your hand. You turned to look back at him, the icy wind nipping at you two ,the boy looked down " I-i asked Santa for something." He said " what was it?" You asked him. He looked up at you "I want you to be my girlfriend." He said, gripping your hand even tighter. You were shocked, no one has ever confessed to you or even talked to you, you were the person that was constantly bullied for stupid things like you were a A+ student and the only girl on the soccer team with chooki mason. You two made eye contact and for the first time in months you smiled.
Little do you know I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece
That's right,I'm still trying to recover, I loved him and I still do, no matter how much I try I can't get over him. He's my blueberry boy, my ceylan
Little do you know I need a little more time
That confession must've took so much courage, and it was so unexpected and original, December 24.
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
It's to much to take, now everything I had is gone...
I've been holding back
For the fear that you might change your mind
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight
Little do you know
I need a little more time
Ceylan's pov
I sat in my room, talking to chooki " I told you man, you shouldn't have done it." He told me " I had to chooki, she needs to move on, I can't have her worry about me." Chooki looked up at me " is this really what you want? I mean it's a tough match to settle but there has to be another way." I looked at him and shook my head
I'll wait, I'll wait
I just I have to wait for her to get over me
I love you like you've never felt the pain , I'll wait
This pain in my chest, all of the things I've felt these past years. Guilt, hurt,sadness, anger, confusion and love. I love (Y/N) I need (Y/N)
I promise you don't have to be afraid, I'll wait
But the person she needs...
The love you see right here stays, so lay your head on me
Isn't
I know you're hurting when I'm sound asleep little do you know all my mistakes are slowly drowning me
Me...
With that realization the world around me grew black and I grew numb...
A/N: AND that's a wrap, thanks so much for reading hope you enjoyed this is the last part of little do you know~ceylan THANK YOU SO MUCH MINNA
Just kidding... I'm not that mean, let's continue
No pov
You completely lost it, tears stained your face, cuts on your wrist , to show how much pain and suffering the blue haired boy had caused you. You threw down any picture with the boy in it. The blinds were shut and the lights were off, the house looked completely abandoned and you like it that way. Everything felt fine until there was a knock on the door, you didn't want to get it, you were in fear that is was ceylan and to be perfectly honest you didn't want to see his face. The knocking continued for some time until it made you grow insane, you hesitantly reached for the locked door knob and opened slowly to see long blond hair and green emerald eyes, chooki mason.
He showed you a sweet caring smile until he saw your blood shut eyes, your tear stained face, the cuts on your wrist that was leaving pools of blood wherever you went. Chooki grew concerned, he rushed you to your couch and made you sit down, asked you if you were feeling light headed and without an answer he left to get the first aid kit. A few minutes later and the blond boy came back, he cleaned your wrist gently and than patched it up. He sat next to you and wanted you to get all your tears out. You sat your head on his lap and cried your eyes out, he held you gently and told you everything was gonna be alright. When you were finished,he stayed with you, he played with your hair and when he fell asleep you played with his. Pretty soon you both were asleep, your head on his shoulder and your hands intertwined.
Time skip to morning ~
You both were awoken when chooki's phone started to ring " hello?" He asked, his expression grew concerned and then serious. There were a few pauses " ok, we'll be there right away." Chooki said and ended the call. Without a word chooki took your hand and you both ran to the hospital which wasn't really that far from your house. Chooki ran to meet toxa,who was outside of the building waiting for you guys. The green haired boy led you both to his room and there he sat, mr blueberry boy himself, ceylan jones. Ceylan look deathly pale and his breathing wasn't steady, the heart monitor kept a steady sound and you broke right there, with chooki holding you. You couldn't believe this is happening, at that point everything fell into place. Ceylan jones broke up with you because he was gonna die and he didn't want you to worry about him. You didn't think about the reasons that much it was more of he didn't love me or I simply wasn't good enough. No the reason was cause he was suffering, he chose to keep you out of it so you could move on and be happy. He loved you, much more than you gave him credit for. You stood in front of his bed " please ceylan you can't leave!" You begged him as you held onto his cold pale hand. The heart monitor stopped, and your ceylan...was gone.
A few years later
No pov
The death of ceylan jones shocked everyone, all his friends came to his funeral which you had planned. Everyone was really supportive of you and you found out that chooki had feelings for you. You both have been dating for a few years now and you were by ceylan's grave talking with him as if he could still hear you. The blond haired boy walked up to you and put hands on your shoulders, he told you to look at him and got down on one knee. In his hands was the most beautiful diamond ring you had ever seen " (Y/N) (Y/M/N) (your middle name) (Y/L) will you make me the luckiest man on the face of this earth and be my wife?" Chooki asked. You put your hands over you mouth and nodded, chooki stood up and kissed you. Chooki put his arm around you and looked at ceylan's grave " I miss you bud, and I promise to take care of (Y/N) and if I don't, you can haunt me in my sleep." You giggled and your new life started
Little do you know I will love you till the sun dies
A/N : real ending hope you enjoyed, I hope it was satisfactory to you all I'm sorry if it wasn't happy, but hey I'll make more happy ones. You guys are awesome, goodbye minna
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