Broken Generation (Sequel to Don't Go)

Chapter 16

** 7 months after Nicole Woke up **

** Crimson's P.O.V. **

I stared at the ceiling blankly- the sun starting to rise once again. Why, why couldn't the sun just stop and let the world freeze? Why couldn't they just leave me the hell alone- leave me to rot in the bed instead of forcing me to chant and sing, create crafts and try to face my problems. Why couldn't they just give up!

"Crimson." A meek voice whispered- and I looked over at the doorway, catching the eyes of Mary. "I'm sorry... I couldn't sleep." She said as she slipped in. I patted the bed beside me- smiling weakly as she slipped under the covers and saddled up to my side, her arms wrapping carefully around my bony body.

"Did you have another night terror?" I asked softly, watching the young girl nod. I raised my left hand- wrapping it around her and running my fingers through her hair. "What story do you want to hear tonight?" I asked softly, and she sniffled quietly in thought.

"H-how about the one where you became famous on youtube?" She asked, and I looked down at her, raising an eyebrow.

"Really? Again?" I asked softly, and she nodded. I let out a small sigh and looked out the window- relishing the stinging in my eyes from the sunlight. "Alright... well, it started out as a normal day... Josh and I were in a good mood- hanging out and such when I got a text from Nicole... " I trailed off as my eyes traveled to the ceiling.

"Crimson..." Mary said softly and I blinked, looking down at her. "You got a text from Nicole, then what happened?" She asked- and I let out a small sigh- looking back up.

"Bring Me the Horizon was playing a small concert at a cafe... to start the mini tour in London. I said we would go, and we get there... Everyone's happy, in a good mood. Oli seemed normal... everyone did... They got on stage and it was amazing- as always. The rush I got... it seems I always get it- and it never diminishes during the concert- even if it was like my twenty second concert..." I rested an arm across my face- starting to feel drowsy suddenly. "It was all going so well... then Oli, Oli screwed up." I whispered.

"He kissed a girl- I saw that part." She said, and I weakly chuckled.

"Yea, he kissed a girl that wasn't Nicole... I lost it- storming up there and punching him. He was so afraid- he wasn't in his right mind. Why did he even kiss her in the first place? I still wonder that- and I'm sure even if I got the answer I wouldn't be satisfied... I humiliated him... and he broke Nicole's heart... ever since then- ever since then I haven't tried to be his friend... he killed my best friend and sister, and killed our friendship... whatever was left of it." I said softly- and Mary grunted softly, starting to fall asleep. I looked down at her as let out a soft sigh- moving closer to her.

"And that's how I became famous on youtube." I whispered softly- falling asleep next to Mary.

When I next woke Mary was gone and Austin was at my bed side, Josh standing beside him.

"Hey Bluebird." Austin said and I grunted, rolling onto my right side as I looked up at him. "How are you feeling?" He asked and I shrugged. If i wanted to tell him the truth- I would tell him that I felt like shit... like I wanted to die and that withdrawal was a bitch. I wanted so badly to just shove some heroin in myself and call it a day.

"I feel how I feel... there is no rushing this Austin." I said softly- and I tried to ignore his crestfallen face. "Why did you guys come visit?" I asked, and he looked back to Josh, who gestured for him to go first.

"Recently i went to Brixton. I dedicated a song to you while I was there. Broken Generation." He said and I couldn't help but smile softly, taking his outreached hand with my boney one, kissing it softly. He smiled and sat down beside me- allowing Josh to take a step closer. I reached out to him with my left hand, feeling better on the inside when he took my hand and kissed each knuckle.