Babygirl // h.g

eight

i woke up in Hayes bed, it was in the middle of the night i didn't know what time it was but i didn't really bother either, i couldn't think straight i felt my heart start to beat faster then a rocket, i got out of his bed and walked into my room as i fell to the ground into the palm of my hands by my bed, i couldn't think at all nor was i really trying to as well. My vision started to get blurry from my tears.

'He doesn't love you' my thoughts said to myself, I cried harder.

"Yes he does" I said back in between sobs. I ran my fingers in my hair as I tugged a little bit.

'Why do you think that?'

"Because he does I know he does." I said out loud.

'Why would he love a monster?!'

"HE DOESN'T! HE DOESN'T CARE!" I screamed out loud as I cried into my knees, I kept saying it over and over again.

I walked over to my dresser and took some of the antidepressant and a glass of water a pill after a pill after a pill.

"It's okay, it's fine. He doesn't care,he doesn't care." I said as more of the heavy tears came out.

I got a bottle of vodka and took a swing of it. Still saying that he doesn't care, it's obvious he doesn't.

'Just using you don't get to attached' I thought.

"Where's the LSDS?" I said to myself, looking for some LSD. I remember specifically were I put them last there were right under my pillow. I took some and put it in my mouth. I felt some of the tears I was holding back come back

"You're fine. You're fine, he's okay without you." I said taking another swing of vodka and the LSD and more of antidepressants that was the last one before I screamed on the top of my lungs over and over again saying: he doesn't care.

"SHUT THE FUCK HE DOESN'T CARE AT ALL ABOUT YOU" I said before throwing the bottle of vodka at my bedroom door and it breaking into little pieces as the smell of the liquid went through out my room.

Hayes pov.

I jumped up when I heard something smash up against a wall I rolled over and felt hazels body not next to me, making me cold cause my rooms freezing.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP HE DOESN'T CARE AT ALL FOR YOU" I heard someone said, I thought about it for a while then that's when I heard the big smash up against a wall as more screams came across the hall.

"Hazes? Hazes?! HAZEL" I ran out of my room and into hers but her door was unfortunately locked.

"Hazel unlock the door, please Hazel" I said banging my body up against the door.

"NO JUST LEAVE! YOU DON'T CARE" she yelled on the other side of it. Just then everyone woke up running over to me.

"What's wrong with her what's she doing?!" Johnson said to Gilinsky he started to cry.

"She's drunk, just open her door" he said pushing me out of the way.

Hazels pov.

I kept taking the antidepressants and more of the LSD I kept doing it over and over and over again.

"Hazel unlock the door, please Hazel" someone said on the other end of the door as he or she started to bang up against the door.

"NO JUST LEAVE YOU DON'T CARE" I said then it become silent, so I took another LSD, I could feel my breathing to start to slow down and my heart start to beat faster and faster as I cried again screaming on the top of my lungs.

"Hayes help her!" I heard someone say it sounded like they were crying. I wanted to give up on breathing but I still didn't want to, if that makes sense. I just want the pain to go away is what I'm trying to say.

Ryann pov.

"Hayes help her" I cried out into Ethan's chest, his hands turned into fists as he took a few steps back and ran into the door.

Hayes pov.

I ran toward the door nothing worked, I'm done. I can't do anything now, I punched the door over and over again but it wouldn't budge open, I tried one last time running into the door. It opened as I saw Hazel have a bottle of vodka in here hand laying down on the ground smoking. I cried and cried and cried.

I ran over to her sliding on my knees as I held her head she was breathing and that was all I was worried about.

"Hazel why?" I said as everyone filled the room hugging her, she cried into my chest.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, I wasn't thinking I-I can't do it, I'm sorry. I'm awful, I'm so s-sorry" she cried harder into my chest making me cry.

"Hazel stop it, stop saying that. I love you why'd you do this, I'm scared" I cried into her hair as I held tight to her. She didn't reply she didn't move nor was she looking at me. Her eyes puffy and red.

"Why were you screaming?" Grayson said to her she turned to him, and began to spoke.

"He didn't care" she said.

"Who didn't care, baby" I asked she started to cry again and breath heavy.

"I thought you didn't care, I'm sorry I thought that, I just thought you didn't care" she said holding onto me as she hugged me.

"It's fine. hey hey look at me" I said as I put my finger under her chin.

"I care more then anything in the whole world. I care for you more than I care for myself, damn it Hazel why do you think I asked you out" I said with a smile.

"You care? I'm okay, Hayes I'm fine, I'm just scared" she said.

"Me too"