Babygirl // h.g

Thirty four

Hazel pov.

I finally found a comfortable stop and let my eyes close on them own as I fell asleep.

~~dream~~

I was lying on the ground getting kicked on the side leaving possible marks on me, everyone telling me to do one thing but meaning the other everyone screaming at me telling me how unneeded I am to them.

I got up and ran away from them, I shut and locked the door. I lit a cigarette as I heard banging on my door trying to open it. Ignored it and acted like nothing was happening in the real world but in my head, I was going insane,

"Well maybe if you haven't been the person you are I wouldn't of never stopped loving you, but you're Hazel and Hazel just isn't good enough to live so I'm leaving you for good this time and don't expect me to come back" he said staring into my eyes causing me to flinch thinking he's going to hit me again. He didn't so I relaxed but right as I did he slammed me up against my bedroom door and yelled in my face.

Tears came out of my eyes as some did as well for him, usually he's the strong one but he lost it and punched me.

"Stop it Hayes please you're hurting me" I begged he let me go and I fell to the ground as I coughed and chocked and gagged. I couldn't help but get an LSD I watched him walk out the door before I could say anything I was having a trip.

"Hayes come back. Please" I fell asleep, well I tried too. I lauded in my bed hoping for someone to come and help me, but nothing happened. I got up and tried to reach the bottle of alcohol I had on my nightstand my vision had the effect of flashing lights making me close them and cry over and over and over again, until no tears came out just screams of pain.

"Why do I do this to myself?" I told myself hoping not to have an answer.

'Not many people like you, kid'

Me trying my best not to react in the worst way possible was impossible for me, I ran my hands through my hair as I screamed my highest and loudest for everyone to hear I'm in pain and I'm not right. I'm not perfect no one is everyone's got something wrong with them and mine effect is my depression the anger issues the trust issues, I've got it all and it drives me insane.

"I'm done" I cried taking more prozacs and more LSD's and another hit if my cigarette and another swing of vodka I tried to walk around my room but I get scared I'll fall or knock something over and get hurt so I stayed put on the ground still crying.

It feels like hours before I felt my own heart beating and me breathing.

~~end of dream~~

I cried, and was having a panic attack that dream sooner turned to reality, I was doing everything I did in my dream, the smoking, the drinking, the drugs, and the prozacs. The screaming the crying.

"Hey Hazel what's wrong?!" Jack came in my room running towards me as everyone else did I didn't reply but closed my eyes and stopped breathing for a response.

Hayes pov.

"HAYES MAN WAKE UP" Nate shook me awake. Or was I already up I had pills all over the ground and a bottle of alcohol in my hand with a cigarette I had something in my mouth, it was a LSD. Surprise. Surprise.

"HAYES WAKE UP PLEASE!!" I heard another voice I opened my eyes and looked around. mahogany, Ryann, Ethan, Nate, and Tez  were all surrounded me. Just one person was missing.

"Hayes are you okay?!! Hayes talk to us" Ryann said, I couldn't even think of breath I didn't know what to do. I stopped trying to live after everything went black.

Hazel pov.

My breathing slowed down, my everything just stopped.

"Go call 911 NOW!" I heard a worried tone in a voice as I couldn't feel anything my chest tightened up and my brain started to pound as I tried to cry but didn't work, I couldn't see everything was gone. I'm just need to stop trying, I feel as if I try to much but never put much effort into it. Maybe that's the reason why I am who I am, I give up too easily.

It felt like hours before I could feel my body being picked up.

Jack pov.

The paramedics came and took Hazel to a hospital we all got in my car and raced the traffic to the hospital, my heart beating as fast as I'm driving.

"Make a right" Nash said he was telling me the directions so we can get to the hospital.

Hayes pov.

I heard talking, crying, yelling, sobbing, and people taking my body and leading me somewhere.

Tez pov.

"There's a hospital much better then ours for a situation Hayes Grier is in." A paramedic said in a hurry to take care of Hayes as best as they could.

"Where?" We all asked at once,

"It's the North Carolina emergency center" they said again. Mahogany gasped and held onto me as k hugged her and she cried into my chest as Ryann did the same to Ethan

"If it'll held to get him back then please take him there" I said trying to hold back the tears.

"Is he okay?" Ryann asked. The paramedic hesitated to answer.

"He's heart rate is extremely low, he might not make it. So we need to hurry up and fly him in our helicopter and get him their as fast as we can, if you want there's enough room for you guys. Plenty of room for you all to go with" she offered we nodded

Jack pov.

We got it the hospital in the longest time ever, it took a couple of hours for us because they said they had the issue with someone else.

I'm just so worried, this is the second time this has happened.