Babygirl // h.g

three

after the first period Ryann, Ethan, and I gave up and walked to a gas station, we went to QT. we all got an energy drink to burst our energy cause we get exhausted easily. as we walked out I got a text from Jack.

why aren't you at school, hazes?! - Jack.

idk 😉 - Me.

shut up, get home now - Jack.

sure - me.

"we gotta go home let's go." I whined, they groaned.

"Jack wants us to" I rolled my eyes. we walked all the way home from QT and as we did we smoked a bit more, cause why not?

we got home and opened the door, we all tried to ignore all the guys about to yell at us so we all walks up stares but failed.

"hey get down here!" Jack Johnson yelled at us as Nash, Grayson, and Jack were sitting at the kitchen table.

we rolled our eyes before we all said at once. "What?" we took a seat at the table with them with a slight grin.

"Wrap those grins off those faces" Grayson said, we didn't listen just smiled. Nash let out a small chuckle as Grayson, Jack, and Jack gave him a glare making him stop.

"you guys need to go to school, stop skipping" Gilinsky said in a serious tone. I groaned.

"but we did, didn't we?" I said as Ryann and Ethan nodded.

"we went first period and then we gave up" Ethan explained.

"hazel you need to get your shit together, if mom and dad haven't passed away I would've got rid of you years ago" Jack yelled. that hit the heart.

"is this what's this about?! mom and dad dying? it's bad enough that I'm labeled as a fucking monster, Jack." I defended myself I felt the lump in my throat before I started to cry, but I didn't I held back the tears.

"hazel look at yourself, have you seen yourself lately you don't sleep at night, you drink, and smoke weed. your eyes are bloodshot as I'm looking at you, no wonder you're a fucking monster that's all you are, you're not special in anyway, you're nothing to this world" he said staring into my eyes, I felt tears come out of my eyes.

"YEAH I KNOW! DON'T GOTTA REMIND ME SO JUST FUCK OFF AND STOP MAKING ME FEEL EVEN MORE WORTS ABOUT MYSELF THEN I ALREADY DO!" I screamed as I ran up the steps.

"no hazes wait I didn't mean it" he tried to stop me and run after  me but I slammed my door shut before he could get to the last step.

I got in my bed turned off my light the only light I had was the black light I had on in my room. I got my phone and put on music and got my earbuds. but before I laid back to relax I set am alarm  so I wouldn't sleep forever.

LSD by A$AP Rocky was on and I put it on repeat, the bass of the song vibrated my brain as I got out a cigarette and lit it, as tears rushed down my face.

'why do you do this to yourself?' I thought to myself.

"I don't know, I'm just too alone" I answered myself back. I pretend I have someone talking to me or I hear it in my heard but in reality no ones there and I talk to myself usually just really negative stuff I say to myself then I get mad at myself then I end up crying again.

I felt my eyes get heavy as i fell asleep with the song replaying in my ears over and over again.

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my alarm on my phone went off that I set earlier, it was seven o'clock. I got up and felt the my eyes burn I squeezed them closed as tight as I can until I walked down stairs, Ryann and Ethan I caught making out on the couch my jaw dropped.

"GOALS!" I screamed scaring them they pulled apart and looked at me with a mad expression on my face.

"woah, when did y'all start dating?" i winked, they rolled their eyes.

"today, I asked her out after you went to your room" Ethan said and I nodded before getting a banana from the kitchen and pealing it. I heard footsteps come from the steps as Gilinsky shows up in the kitchen.

"hey hazes, I'm really sorry" he tried to get my attention but I walked away and went to my room. I walked up the steps as I ran into Nash.

"hey jack said he was sorry" he said with a mouth full of food

"okay. does it look like I care?" I said with a straight face.

he shook his head 'no'. "well I've gotta go get my younger brother from the police station" he mumbled.

"and why haven't I met him yet?" I asked turning on my heels watching him walk down the steps, he shrugged for a response.

"you will when I come back" he said and I nodded.

I walked back to my room and sat on my balcony and took a bottle of vodka I had under my bed to drink it, it sets my mind off of things. especially Jack.