Babygirl // h.g

Thirty three

I walked up to the door and rang the door bell, as I heard a lock unlock.

"Oh my god, Hazel I missed you so much" Grayson said I was expecting Jack to answer I didn't hold back I hugged him as he spun me around like Hayes us to do.

"I heard what Happened and just wanted to tell you you're beautiful and you deserve better" he said making me blush. He sat me down before all of the guys came back. I smiled and we all had a group hug.

"Okay, I can't breath" I giggled before everyone released me from a huge group hug. They laughed.

"Hey how about since hazels got a lot on her mind, let's all go to sleep" Johnson said we agreed and headed upstairs. I felt like I was the first to fall asleep.

Hayes pov.

We left the beach and went to tez's house to come up with idea to get Hazel back.

"You guys I'm going to bed" I said getting up they nodded and I went to my room, the blacklight I had before was still in my room which made everything purple which made me sad cause Hazel has the same light at tez's house and back home, I feel as if everything reminds me of haze, and it makes me cry. I took some of the pills I brought which was prozac just like Hazel takes for depression, I don't feel worth it anymore actually, I'm going to bed and never coming out of my room.

I fell asleep and relaxes my body.

Hazel pov.

I took some of my prozacs like Hayes takes for depression before I went to sleep. I'm just going to give up now I need to stop pretending I'm okay all the time. I've been told I look like a happy person, sometimes I am but the little things scare me and I'm back to hiding my feelings again. The main reason I smoke and I drink and I'm the way I am is because I'm just scared.

Hayes pov.

I feel asleep and everything came back to me like a roller coaster, I couldn't tell if this was real or not.

~~Dream~~
"Just stay away from me Hayes please you're too dangerous" she said packing up her stuff.

"No babygirl please stay with me" I said taking a swing of vodka I had in my hands crying.

She came up to me and looked me in the eyes. "You're nothing" her hand hit the side of my face, she slapped me like she's never slapped anyone before causing my ear to ring.

"Just don't, Hazel look at me you're just as drunk as I am. Please don't go, I love you." I pulled her arm as she pulled back, still ignoring me and getting her jacket on before heading out the door. I ran to her.

"Hayes this is it. We're not meant for each other I think we're different" she said, I shook my head

"Maybe that's a good thing."

"I disagree we different but maybe that's a good thing sometime the people,who's different from you can also be the people who kind of act the same in ways. Hazel, I'm in love with you" I cried out tugging on my hair.

She bit her lip " yeah well I'm not. I think we look at things differently and I look at you as a nobody, you're worthless to me and is world. You're a monster" she shut the door leaving me in the house all alone, this sucks. I'm here all alone again. I'm all of those things she sad.

I could feel the lump in my throat start to form as I fell to the ground to cry, my face in my hands as I screamed, my lungs started to burn and my chest tighten up leaving me screaming and crying in a house on the ground. Alone.

I managed to get up and go to my room slamming my door shut. I looked through the draws under my bed and my nightstand nothing, I can't find them.

"Where are they?" I was looking for more of the antidepressants but I couldn't find them I remember throwing them somewhere and them landing by the door, I got up and looked for a bottle I closed the door again and they were behind the door, I picked them up and popped the lid off. I took a pill after a pill after a pill.

And to wash it down the glass bottle of vodka. I felt my heart to start to race as I breathed heavy.

"HAZEL STOP!!" I screamed pulling in my hair.

'Stop losing people.' I thought to myself or said out loud.

'You worthless piece of shit'

"SHUT UP" I screamed one last time before I couldn't feel my own heart beating.