Babygirl // h.g

Twentythree

I almost started to cry cause my head hurt so bad, I heard the bathroom door open, I opened my eyes and saw Hayes walking over to me.

I was just a tiny bit sad yet mad at the same time, I rolled over and closed my eyes again.

Hayes got in bed with me and turned around as well, I felt hurt because we made up like an hour ago and now he's not even looking at me nor talking.

"Hayes?" I asked he didn't answer, just groaned.

"I'm scared" I admitted, I really was, I was scared that he won't ever talk to me again, also we just made up and we were good and now he's made at me for smoking.

"I'm sorry. Just don't think of scary stuff" he said not looking at me.

"Okay" I said and rolled over so our backs were facing each other, I felt my eyes get heavy and I officially fell asleep.

Ethan pov.

Ryann and I got to the hotel around three and we opened the door, Hayes and Hazel were sleeping but won't facing each other I was confused didn't they say 'sorry' and they stopped fighting?

Ryann and I looked at each other and shrugged we got out pajamas on as we did Hazel woke up.

"Hey" she said softly trying not to wake up hayes. We looked up and smiled but she didn't smile back, something happened and I'm going to figure it out one way or another.

Ryann pov.

Hazel didn't look herself, she looked like she lost a lot of sleep.

"Are you and Hayes okay?" Ethan asked, I hit him for being too nosey.

She shrugged. "I don't know he got mad at me for smoking and I felt mad he went in the bathroom crying, I think. I asked him what he was doing in there and he said just go to bed so I did and I fell asleep a little bit then he came out of the bathroom and got I bed I rolled over hoping him and I were cuddle together but he didn't, and I said I was scared." She said in between sobs.

"Then what?" I asked her pulling her in for a hug.

"Well I was scared he was mad at me which he is, and I was also sad because we just made up and now we're not talking and I feel really bad, but he didn't care cause he said I'm sorry, don't think of scary stuff." She said, Ethan and I both pulled her in for a hug as she then stopped crying.

Hayes pov.

I wasn't really sleeping I could hear every word they were saying and I felt really awful, I just hate when she's always scared of stuff, and I'm not sure why. Sometimes I just know why I do the things I do, I mean I was drunk and I kissed a girl Hazel left we finally said it was fine and I wouldn't do it again, and now I scared her. She's scared of me being mad at her, I guess I really am a monster.

"Hey it's okay, just go back to bed and wake up tomorrow and maybe he forgot about it and you did too" Ethan's voice told Hazel. I heard her sniffle again as I felt my heart shatter in pieces.

"Hazel, did you take you're antidepressants?" I heard Ethan asked again. It was silent. Antidepressants? Seriously, she has medication?! It's that for depression or something.

"No, I just had like LSD but I didn't take the normal stuff" she said breaking the silence. Ryann and Ethan groaned, I rolled over slowly. They didn't noticed I moved,  I opened one eye to see them and Hazel did look scared her fingers in her mouth she's sweating and breathing heavy.

"Oh my god, hazes that's drugs that's not antidepressants and you know that, Hazel you need to take them." Ryann aid putting her hands in her face. She got up and searched through hazels bag.

"Stop trying I didn't bring them" Hazel got up and slightly pushed Ryann away. Ethan walked over and hugged Hazel one last time, but it didn't work to well she started to cry more and more, she bent down running her hands down her face, for only having one eye closed I could see very well like this.

"Hazel it's okay, listen to us ok-"

"No it's not okay, I've been telling my self that since they died and nothing's been okay just tell me the truth tell me everything's never gonna be alright cause frankly it's not. Ryann you don't get it, Ethan you don't either. I'm scared, I'm scared out of my mind, shit I am out of my mind I can't help myself and I can't help but just cry all day and every night. It's not okay. I'm not okay, i never was" she said with tears streaming down her face.

"I'm a monster" she said pulling on her hair, it went silent. Ryann shook her head and hugged her one last time.

I woke up, well I pretended I did and looked over at them as they did the same to me, Hazel looked down at the ground. I opened my arms as she walked over to me, I held on to her tightly not letting her go. Soon Ryann and Ethan came over on our bed and hugged us as well.

"Shhhh. I'm right here." I whispered in her ear, her breathing started to slow down and she became more calm.

Hazel pov.

I'm pretty sure Hayes is the only one who can calm me down, no one else can. I'm not even sure what to do with myself, just Hayes has this hug that makes me feel like I'm more safe then I've ever been.

"Calm down, baby girl. I'm right here I love you" he said again kissing my forehead as I fell asleep in his grip.