♤ Kaya's Pov ♤
First day back, healthy and alive. Ugh, the thought is disgusting. I wasn't allowed to drink any type of alcohol. But I didn't listen, sitting on my bed in striped pants and a shirt. I drank it straight from the bottle.
It Felt good to drink again. But the day I woke up. Dylan told me something. He said " Kaya, I want to be with you I truly do. But not when you do all this shit to yourself. "
" What do you mean? " I Ask him
" when you drink, cut and smoke " He Says.
" Dylan I know you cut to..so I'll stop if you stop. " I Say Grabbing His hand.
He Bites His bottom lip gently " okay... "
" Promise? "
" Promise. "
Being Honest I Was never good with promises. Or secrets. That's why everyone knew I liked Dylan. I was a horrible, suicidal mess.
◇ Dylan's Pov ◇
I Sigh at my once again bloody knuckles, I broke my promise. I'm not trustworthy, Attractive or anything...I'm just me...
I Look Out My window, it started to rain.
Rain was such a beautiful thing. I loved it more than anything. I opened my window and sat back down on my bed.
God. How could I make that promise to kaya? I'm so stupid. She'll never love me now, I'm to dangerous. Along with that she's way to beautiful to be with guy like me.
I kept saying everything that was true, then the tears came.
I'm horrible..I'm ugly, I'm just...the guy who is desperate to get with a girl he loved for 12 fucking years. But she'll never feel the same thing I feel.
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Suicidal Love
FanfictionKaya Was A Depressed Teenage Girl, Her Friends Tried To Help Her But She Didn't Want Any Help. She Had A Smoking Addiction Along With Some Alcohol Here And There. All She Wanted In Life Was To Kill Herself, She Cut Herself And Kept Quiet. Most Kids...