Far beyond broken.

Chapter Sixteen - Rescue

~Third Person~
She was running. Getting away. She knew she didn't have much time until her two only friends would start a rampage and get a search party out looking for her, which would crush any plans of ending her suffering today... she just wished they'd give up and stop already. Enough was enough. Lydia knew what she wanted to do and she was fed up of being held back, whether it was by people or her nerves. But she was going to do it, she had to do it. It was her fate... it was the only way for her.

She was just tired, so tired. Too tired, too drained. Her life had consumed her, everything was going so wrong. She couldn't do anything right... everything she tries at just turns to trash.

She had nothing to live for... even her supposed friendships with Allison and Isaac... she knew they were only her friends because they felt sorry for her and pitied her no matter how much they would deny it.

Lydia knew she was unwanted. Before she befriended Allison, her life consisted off standing in corridors by herself... doing pretty much everything alone and it hurt to be so lonely.

But this was it. Everything was going to end today. No more of this stupid life. No more of this cruel life. No more repenting and dwelling on the past... no more anything. Most importantly, no more of waking up and feeling like this every single day... And that alone... it sounded good to Lydia. At least she'd no longer be in pain...

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~Lydia~
I was here. At the bridge. I was going to do this.

If there was a time it had to be today, it had to be now. There was no going back. Once i jump, I jump... I'm done. I don't wanna survive and make it through this time... i'm too damaged. Physically and mentally to continue.

I took a short walk along the bridge, dragging my hands along the cold metal rail as I done so... I'll be jumping off here soon.

Even after everything, I still found myself very hesitant. I think it's an anxiety thing... but I'm certain that this is what I want. Me being hesitant... it won't stop me; it won't change anything whatsoever.

I turned to face the view of the bridge... I looked down, it was quite foggy, but I could see that it was high. Hopefully high enough to finish me.

Even now, no one cares. Plenty of cars are driving past, people are walking past. No ones paying attention... no ones noticing. Because the cruel reality is unless you're popular or pretty no one gives a fuck about you... not until you rock up dead and all these people claim how they knew you and people think about what they could of done to prevent this... But that won't happen for my anyway. I'm too insignificant and invisible for people to notice that I'm even gone.

I pulled myself over the railings and sat on the metal bar... this was it. I just needed to let go allow myself to fall and I would.

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~Isaac~

Me and Allison. We were out... searching. Searching for her, our friend. Friend... I don't really know about that... You see the thing is, ever since I've met Lydia, the first time she bashed into me at school or even when i laid eyes on her for the first time, I felt like I had a strange connection to her... I can't explain it. I've never felt that kind of connection with anyone before and I don't know what it means. But whatever, that doesn't matter right now. All that matters is getting Lydia and bringing her home safe.

"ISAAC!" My sister yelled as we approached the next road. Her voice was so high pitched! She better have a reason for busting my ear drum.

"What is it?" I replied, with my hand over my ear.

"That's Lydia! She's going to jump look! We have to stop her!" Allison exclaimed.

"No. i have to do this Allison. If she sees both of us it may make her more determined to jump... and with all due respect i'm a tiny bit faster than you." Isaac murmured.

"I think she's prefer you anyway...." Allison shrugged. I didn't know what she meant by that, but I didn't have time to sit about and question her either. I had to save Lydia. Now.

I got out of the car and rushed over to her. There were a few people already surrounding her telling her not to do it...

"Lydia." I began. She turned to face me, her eyes filled with tears... She looked in pain and it was hurtful to whiteness that alone.

She was sat on the rail, barely though. She could easily fall or stumble by accident.

"Why are you here?! You don't care Isaac! You don't fucking care!" She began.

"You're wrong. So wrong! Me being here itself shows I care... Please Lydia. Don't do this. You may feel worthless, you may think that no one needs you and that you have no place here, but you do! I need you Lydia. So does my sister." I began... I hoped that'd get her off the railings, but deep down I knew it'd take a lot more than that.

"I can't. I can't go back." She sniffed.

"Lydia god dammit! You're hurting now but doing this... there's no coming back from it. Life will get better, someday it will... I promise you that. It might not be straight away but it will happen. Life is a gift and you shouldn't give that away. Loads of people would kill to have what you have." I pointed out. She didn't say anything, she just snorted.

"I don't know why you're snorting Lydia... it's true. You're a great friend, you have everything you need and you're beautiful." I told her.

"Don't." She looked down.

"You feel it too... Don't you?" I asked her.

"Feel what?" She looked at me and gulped.

"The connection between us. Lydia... if you ever cared about me, please just get down. Take my hand." I told her. She looked away... she was thinking. But that was enough. I was going to take a risk. I moved closer towards and quickly scooped her up in my arms.

"No! Isaac! Put me down!" She began.

"Lydia... it's ok. I've got you... and i swear, I'm not letting anything bad like this happen to you again." Isaac murmured before kissing her forehead. He then continued on his tracks, where he'd take Lydia home to rest.

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A/n
I don't know why I haven't updated in like... 6 months? Theres no acceptable reason. In all honesty, I stopped writing all my books because I didn't have the creativity or the motivation.

But idk, I'm back now. And I know I need to finish this book. I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore but imma still write it.

Not sure on this chapter, but its something right?

Anyway, thanks for reading <3

I'll try update soon.

Thanks,

Freya xx