Far beyond broken.

Chapter six - Why are you here?

~Lydia~

Isaac was here, at my house... I couldn't believe it. Out of all places, he was here with me. Why? I didn't even know the answer to that, but i was determined to find out.

"Yes Lydia... My names Isaac, don't ware it out." He smirked, that ego of his...

And that's so typical for him to say that and so cliche.

"Did you really just say that?" I felt myself chuckle.

"I did indeed." He grinned, so how did he even get in here? My parents, they're horrible, awful... They would never let a guy in my room!

"How did you get in here?" I questioned him, perhaps i didn't have the authority to question him, but he had appeared in my house, in my room...

"Your parents, they let me in... They seem really cool actually. But I told them that I'm your lab partner." He claimed, really? They believed that!? They're so strict, they don't allow me to do much but they let Isaac in my room, and anything could happen for all they know... But i doubt that highly, i can't date anyone... Physically, I have enough problems to deal with, i can't be dealing with anyone elses. And I'm pretty sure that a guy like that wouldn't be interested in me anyway.

"Really? Are you sure you didn't sneak in?" I asked him, slightly grinning.

"Yes, i'm pretty sure i didn't need in. Besides i didn't need to, it would be completely unnecessary... Your parents love me Lydia." He claimed, i just couldn't believe him... I couldn't take him seriously.

"Oh. Why are you here then?" I questioned him once again. Personally, i'd get irritated being asked all these questions if it was the otherway round.

"Why not?" He shrugged, doesn't really answer my question, but ok.

"So what were you doing before i got here?" Now he's questioning me, it's his turn... Great.

Reading my depression journal... Like I could actually say that. It would be classed as attention seeking majorly, this is why i keep myself to myself. I can't afford my parents finding out either, they are the problem and if they found out, i'd have to kill myself for real this time. There would be no going back...

"Nothing, literally. I was going to take a nap." I lied, i was an awful liar... Nor did he seem convinced either.

"Hmm, that's a bit contradicting. Considering I heard alot of commotion on my way up the stairs and you weren't laid down... But who am I to question you? If the question is that difficult to answer then it doesn't matter," He mumbled.

"It's not like that Isaac... Look, why does it actually matter what i was doing? It doesn't concern you!" I snapped, this is exactly what i meant, i couldn't deal with people questioning me.

"Fine Lydia, fine." He was genuinely annoyed with me, i could tell by the tone of his voice. He headed towards my bedroom door... No i didn't want to be alone again, i didn't want to return to depression, at least not yet.

"Isaac, please wait." I sighed, he instantly stopped in his tracks. He turned around and walked back towards me.

"You are one strange girl Lydia, but in a good way. I'm intrigued..." He told me whilst cupping my cheek. I had extreme butterflies, i had never experienced this sort of contact with anyone.

Saying that, I could still feel the depression... Deep down, in my stomach... It was emotion filled and i hated feeling so badly. Isaac let go of my cheek.

"I'm sure i can stay a little while longer..." He grinned, wow this guy really was something else... I just let out an awkward smile before sitting down on my poxy bed.

"Not gonna talk Lydia?" He asked me, slightly grinning once again with his arms folded,

"What is there to to talk about? Wait, perhaps i should rephrase that... What would you like to talk about?" I replied.

"Tell me about you..." He smiled, why was he so interested? That's what i just couldn't understand. Why does he care so much? It's nice, yes! But it's also quite annoying me.

And what am i meant to say to that? I could tell him about my depression, my life...how everything had gone wrong but then i'd be classed as an attention seeker and i'd feel like i'm dumping all my problems onto him and that's really not fair.

"There's not much to tell really..." I trailed off.

"Now we both know that's not true," He shook his head. "But if you really don't want to talk about yourself then it's fine." He continued.

I didn't respond, i was unsure on what to say into response to that.

He stayed for another half hour, we made small talk... He preoccupied my from my emotions and my life for the time that he stayed. And believe me, i was grateful for that. But now things would go back to the way they were before...

"I'll see you at school Lydia..." I heard Isaac say.

"Yeah, see you..." I awkwardly replied, he stood in front of me looking at me. I thought he was going?

"What?" I asked him, whilst giving a shy smile.

"Are you not going to give me a hug?" He smirked, was he being serious? Or was it a joke? Currently, i couldn't tell, it was hard to decipher between the serious Isaac and the playful, joking Isaac.

"Are you joking?" I asked him, the truth is no ones ever wanted to hug me, no one has ever hugged me, not even my parents.

"No, why would i joke about that?" He frowned.

"Never mind." I shook my head, I opened up my arms and leant forwards to hug Isaac. I felt him lift me up... I was surprised that he could lift me, but i guess he's strong.

He put me down,

"Goodbye Lydia."

"Goodbye Isaac." I then heard him as he made his way out of my house... Here i was smiling because of this boy! He really is different... But I meant what I said; I can't be more than friends, and i'm pretty sure he doesn't want to be more than that anyway.

But still, i was alone once again, lost, isolated. I felt my depression hit me, surprisingly not as bad as usual. Probably had something to do with Isaac, and i really was thankful for that.

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A/N

Sorry for the long wait, it probably wasn't worth it. I have writers block for like all of my books and it's really bad... This is quite short too, and unedited i don't even know what I'm doing with this book.

I don't know when the next update will be, hopefully in 2015😂😂.

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