Dear Someone,
To be honest, this whole "writing in a notebook" crap is total bullshit. I don't understand how this is supposed to help me in any way. Total waste of time if you ask me. Hell, I don't even know who I'm writing to right now. I guess I will eventually. I've been thinking of filling this notebook up and eventually letting someone read it, but im not quite sure if I want to do that yet. I'll admit that I have pretty fucked up thoughts but hey what the hell this is my notebook and I can write whatever I want so the hell with it. This is supposed to help with those exact fucked up thoughts and feelings according to my psychiatrist.
Okay let's get to this. Im really confused. About everything. Everyone knows me as "Harry Styles from One Direction" but honesly, that's not what i really want to be known as. I want to be known for my own self and for my own identity not for just a band that I am in. Don't get me wrong, I love being in the band but to me, all of those names are just labels that they assign people...I don't want to be labeled... I don't want to be another gamepiece in their wicked games.
Bet you're wondering who "Their" is, right? They are management. Ahhhh management, how I will always hate you. The person representing "Harry Styles" in the media is all lies. That's not Harry. Well atleast not the same Harry from Worcestershire who first applied for the x-factor three years ago, that's for sure. Management pretty much controls my life, everything I do, I wear, the people that I hang out with, everything. Social media? Management. i don't find purpose of them giving me a twitter if all they're going to do is hack it and post some random ass comment that not even I know what it means. They are trying to make me seem to be 'fun and spontaneous'.
My love life depends on them too. Who I date, What gender TO date. Like I said before, Im confused, i don't know who I really am yet. If im gay, straight, bi, any of that, i dont know yet. Im just stuck on what they want me to be right now, I'll find a way out of this mess somehow, i'll guarantee that.
Harry
