Love and Revenge

Chapter 11

Dave's POV

I watch as Jade and Jake walk down the hallway and into their own rooms, I turn and walk over to my brother.

"Hey, Dirk, we need to talk."

"Can't this wait until morning?"

"No."

Dirk groans. "Fine. It better be quick."

"Why are you being such an unemotional bastard lately? We accidently killed someone on the way here and you can't even act like you cared? Or when you killed someone yourself. Did you do it just for fun?"

"Oh come on don't bring this shit up."

"You've changed from the last time you were with us. What if that was Jake or me? Would you act the same way?!"

"Dave shut up. I'm going to bed." He starts walking past me and I push him back.

"No, we're talking about this. Bro you're scaring me. You've never acted like a heartless, killing, bitch before."

"Hah. You think I'm being heartless. That's funny. Dave come on relax, let's just get some sleep."

"What's going on with you? Something's wrong and I know it. You can talk to me."

Dirk begins to walk away again before I grab his arm.

"Dave let go." He tries pulling his arm away but I'm not letting him go.

"I'll let go when you tell me what's wrong."

"Ugh. Fucking stop."

"Bro seriously, please-"

"I'm sick of your shit Dave."

I get caught off guard when Dirk bitch slaps me across the face. I let go and fall to the floor, he just walks down the hallway as I get up.

I sort of walk/run to the rooms. Why would he do that? I don't want to cry but I do under my shades. I open the door as Jade's getting ready for bed. I slam the door behind me and Jade jumps. "Dave! Are you all right? Why is your cheek red?" She says worryingly.

I don't say anything. All I do is just stand there.

"Dave?" Jade inches closer and lightly touches the slap mark on my face. I wince a little and look into her bright green eyes, her adorable white dog ears pinned back. I pull her close and hug her tightly. I start to cry heavily over her shoulder. She hugs back affectionately and sings a sweet lullaby,

Carry on my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more

Her sweet hum makes me want to sleep right then and there.

Once I rose above the noise and confusion

Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion

I was soaring ever higher

But I flew too high

Though my eyes can see I still was a blind man

Though my mind could think I still was a mad man

I can hear the voices when I'm dreaming

I can hear them say

Carry on my wayward son

There'll be peace when you are done

Lay your weary head to rest

Don't you cry no more...

Just like that I'm asleep on Jade's shoulder.

Dirk's POV

I slowly walk down the hallway, my head severely hurting. I didn't mean to hit Dave. Just a wave of anger came over me and . . .I don't know why I did it. I don't even remember hitting someone with the car like Dave had said. I really don't remember anything since the last town. It's all fuzzy and a giant blur.

I open the door to the room and close the door, sliding down it. I bring my knees up to my head and bury my head in my arms. I didn't mean to hit him. My head pounds worse and my heart beat gets faster. What's wrong with me? It feels like the walls are closing in on me and my vision gets blurry.

I pick my head up and see Jake come out of the bathroom in sleepwear and walk over to me.

"Dirk? Are you okay?" He sits down next to me and wipes something off my face. "Why are you crying?"

I touch my face and it's wet with tears, that are now streaming down my cheeks. I wipe my eyes and stand up with Jake. I can't cry. I'm not going to cry.

"I'm fine."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah." I sit on the bed and stare at the floor. What was I thinking? Why did I hit Dave? No matter how hard I try I can't remember any reason. Why can't I remember anything?

Jake sits next to me and puts his hand on mine. I look at him and he gives me a soft smile. I relax and give a genuine smile back. My tears subside and I feel better.

"I'll be right back." Jake kisses my cheek and then goes back into the bathroom. As he leaves an idea hits me, what if I hurt him? What if it's worse? What if I get someone killed?

The thought of any of them dying kills me inside. I cry silently and try to pull myself together but I can't. Tears keep coming and there's this aching in my heart. I take my shades off and throw them across the room in frustration. Get a hold of yourself, stop being weak. I can't let my emotions control me, that's the last thing I want to do.

Soon enough Jake comes back out of the bathroom and looks at me with worried eyes. He walks over and hugs me, making me cry harder over his shoulder. I sob for a while as he tries to comfort me. Eventually I stop and Jake holds my hands.

"You okay now mate?"

I nod my head and he gets up. I'm not okay, but I can't cry anymore. I feel awful for what I did but it's in the past now I guess. I just hope Dave isn't mad or anything. I suppose he's entitled to be though.

"Lay down, I'm going to make some tea."

I kick my shoes off and sink into the bed covers but still sit propped up on the pillows. Jake prepares tea and pops it and warms it in a little microwave they provide in the hotel room. He brings two cups over and sets one on the nightstand next to me.

"Drink, you'll sleep easier."

I take a sip and it tastes decent. So I continue to drink it as Jake climbs into bed with his cup of tea and he snuggles next to me.

We sit and drink our tea for a while, snuggling with each other. It's nice and peaceful. I look over to Jake who's fallen asleep. He's so cute and I love him deeply. I don't want to lose him. However it's inevitable.

The thing is we're almost to the portal, we're about to fight Brocifer. It'll be dangerous. And afterwards, if there is an afterwards, I'll disappear permanently. I don't really have much to live for if we take down Bro. Although maybe I do.

I look at Jake, watching the covers slowly fall and rise as he breathes. I have Jake and I love him. It seems impossible that I love him but I do. He can't possibly love a creature, monster like me yet somehow he does. He's a hunter, I'm a demon, the most imperfect match but somehow it's working out. I don't know how to describe it except Jake makes me . . .happy. So yeah, maybe I have something to live for.

With that thought I turn the light off on the nightstand and wrap my arm around Jake. Whatever happens in the fight with Bro I'll protect Jake and Jade. I'll protect my little brother too. I'll make sure all of them make it out alive. This is my fight. They don't need to get involved in it too much.

I close my eyes and and smile. Maybe Jake will stay with me afterwards.