Maybe This Time (camren/laucy)

Chapter 10

Lauren's POV

My eyes wandered around the deserted streets of my hometown. There are no kids running on the pavement or cars visible in the distance. The rain has been pouring continuously and it made the air feel cool, a big difference from the normal humidity in Miami. I took advantage of the weather and decided to sit near my window to write something on my journal. The last few days have been eventful and I just needed to translate all my thoughts and feelings into words. I was lost in the world of writing when I felt feathery kisses on my neck. I recognized the scent that make my heart thump like a lullaby and my mind buzz with thoughts before I even turn around.

"Penny for you thoughts?" Lucy's distinct tone of voice never fails to make my insides tingle and turn into a mush. God, this woman makes me go all sorts of crazy.

"I was just wondering about your reaction earlier when we saw Camila. Why did you look so scared?"

Her eyes suddenly found the floor more interesting than looking at me. I still don't understand why she feels that her feelings are invalid. I've shown her time and time again that I chose her and will continue on choosing her until she realizes that she's my only choice.

"I won't even try to lie to you, Lo. I felt so small and insignificant compared to Camila. She's the one that got away right?"

I honestly thought that we have gotten past her issues with Camila. I grabbed her face and made her look directly into my eyes. I need her to know that Camila is nothing but a ghost to me now.

"I love you, Lucy. You're the one that I would never get away. Camila and I are done and I promise you that my heart no longer beats for her. You consume my thoughts every single day, babe. I have never loved nor will I ever love anyone as much as I love you."

She was holding onto my shirt as if I could disappear at any moment. If I have to spend every single day of my life proving my love for her then I will. My past was affecting my relationship and my mind was telling me to do something before something happens that could possibly destroy my present.

"I think both Camila and I need is closure. We didn't end on a good note and I hope you know that I'm doing this for us. I need to talk to her about everything but promise me one thing, Luce."

She only nodded and I kissed her softly on the lips to calm her nerves.

"Promise me that you wouldn't get mad or jealous on what I'm about to do." Her eyes looked so scared and doubtful and it sent a piercing ache to my heart knowing that she still doesn't trust my love for her. She exhaled a mouthful of air before responding.

"I trust you, Lo. I promise that I'll still be here waiting for you after you finish whatever you have to do."

"Thank you, babe. I also promise to come back to you with a healed heart. I love you." She kissed me passionately after hearing those words come out of my mouth.

"I love you so much, Lo." She said it with so much emotion that almost made me tear up all over again. I honestly hope that what i'm about to do doesn't change anything between us. I just need to do something that I've been meaning to do all these years. This could be a solution to all of Lucy's doubts and insecurities or this could also be the end of us. It's all up to me now.

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