How Did We Get Here // Luke Hemmings & Zayn Malik

Chapter 28: Past Four Months

During Art class, Michael kept talking to me, making me laugh and we almost got in trouble for being too loud. During lunch, our table expanded with Eleanor, Michael and Liam. Eleanor is sweet, nice and friendly. She usually laughs at sarcastic remarks thrown but she never say's anything sarcastic in return. Liam is sometimes quiet but I talk to him more now and Liam has a girlfriend that's in my P.E. class and she's really friendly but she really doesn't hang out with us much because she hates people swearing. Also, Arlene told Louis about her relationship with Ashton. He didn't flip out much considering that Arlene told him she wasn't 100% on board with Eleanor but now she is, so he had to try and accept the fact of them together. The only major reason why Louis lost it was because they kept it a secret for a year and a half. Anyways I've grown fond of everyone, I love my friends and I'm going to miss them when I leave.

It's been about four months now since I arrived here, four months since I left California. Also, it's been three months that I've been seeing Zayn secretly.

We agreed to date until the both of us were ready to become exclusive. It took some time convincing him, he wanted to tell everyone but I didn't want to tell the gang, especially Louis, Ashton and most of all, Luke. Arlene doesn't even know. I know Louis would talk with us, make sure we don't break any hearts or a special lovely heart. I don't want Ashton to find out either because I didn't keep my promise to him.

When I'm with Zayn, I block out everything, even if it's for 15 minutes but when I'm alone, I text Luke all the time. We even mildly flirt and I know I'm not suppose to but I can't help myself, he's so kind and loving. I know if Luke were to find out, he would hate me. I've gotten to know everyone really well these past months and I'd like to think I know them. I really like Zayn, maybe even start loving him but when I think about Luke, I love him in a way that I wish no one would hurt him, I'd even kill the person who hurt him. Maybe that's why I hate myself for going out with Zayn.

Anyways, when I'm with Zayn, he makes all my problems disappear. He smothers me with his poetic words, his kisses, his gentle warm hugs, his big soft hands. When his lips touch mine, the world around me shuts down. It's just us, two bodies. At the touch of our warm bodies touching, my heart starts fluctuating, it gets out of control and my breath starts increasing by the second. And I know his does too, only difference is that he starts to sweat more, his palms get sweaty and his forehead starts to heat up. And when he touches my body, tries to pull me closer to him, the warm pit of my stomach lightens and the wild butterflies start pouncing. Goosebumps start rising up my arm to my neck and down my back, making me lose control that we almost have to stop because we might proceed into something deeper.

Sometimes though, when he's over at my house and we talk, he asks about my family and I feel incredibly guilty. I haven't told him about the deal with the divorce, I haven't told him that in two months, I would be leaving the country and flying back to California for six months. I'm scared that if I tell him, he would leave me and not want to put up with it. I know its selfish of me, keeping him trapped but I need him since my parents aren't there for me.

When I see my dad, Zayn is always over with us. Actually only my father knows about our relationship. Granted that he spent about four days with us out of four months, he really likes him.

I've talked to my mom and Natalie every week. Since were switching for summer break, my mom was going to spend the summer here with us. Since she's an OB, a doctor that delivers babies, I don't know how she got the time off but she did. She also told me that two of my friends were coming to visit for two weeks. Anyways, when they do come over, I think that's when I'm going to break the news to Zayn and maybe then tell the gang about our relationship. Hopefully there will be a relationship by then.

Also, at church, Michael and Liam started helping. Of course they made Michael sing with Luke and Zayn. Louis was about to join but Arlene wouldn't let him leave her alone. Liam is helping with me the babies. I've gotten to know him good. He tells me that during the summer, he was going to get operated on one ear and the next year, the other ear. I still can't believe he's deaf, he talks so perfect, and when he sings... I just can't believe the world is unfair to good people.

Another thing I'm excited about is the summer is the tryouts for an arduous soccer team. A bunch of coaches from all over the world coming to the guy's school and looking for boys to equip. At night I help Luke and Zayn train. Mostly Luke, we stay up until 1 in the morning shooting goals, sometimes we goof off but I want him to make a team. He is a pro at playing. This summer is the time for everything to change people's lives.

Actually, it's going to be a major change for Arlene and Ashton. Ashton was talking to Luke and me about marrying Arlene. He was going to propose to her after his graduation. Of course Luke and I told him he was going too fast, she was barley going to be a junior in high school and he had his career to think about but he loves her and he's certain that she'll say yes when he asks her.

Also, my sister told me that mom found herself a boyfriend. She started dating guys two months after I left. I knew she hated my dad, I just don't know why.

I'm just waiting patiently for summer to come. But for now I'm going to enjoy this time peacefully and laugh it all out.