How Did We Get Here // Luke Hemmings & Zayn Malik

Chapter 54: The Hormones Man

going to school made me sick. I know that not every one yet knew of the pregnancy but I still couldn't help feel everyone judging me.

Going into Mrs. Pioneer's class was nerve racking. I step foot on her soil and felt the insults chimed in and ready to hit my bruised soul. I sat at my desk and saw that Harry wasn't here yet. I look over at Niall and he shrugs. I could feel my stomach churn without Harry.

He arrived twenty minutes late because his car wouldn't start and instead of asking us for a ride, he chose to walk here. Sometimes he can be the most stubborn individual on the planet.

Going to school was a breeze. Especially since the belly hasn't shown or the rumors rallied up or the staring eye balls every corner of the halls.

I felt lost somehow, like I know I have the love and support of others but they can't comprehend me. They would never know how I feel all the time, or understand my rocky complex emotions.

Sometimes the thought of giving up creeps my mind and I have to surrender it.

At home I just laid down with Vicky in my bed and look at her swollen belly. Poor thing. She looks awful, but then again she's due in a month.

Three weeks have gone by since the truth was revealed.

Wilbert surprisingly has been checking up on me often. Usually I would think he wouldn't care about me since I'm not his responsibility but he shows true emotions towards me. He has been such a good person that I actually gotten really attached to him. I know he would never replace my dad, my dad is always number 1 in my heart but Wilbert is another father figure I have here. He's grown on me, he's been so good to me.

And then there's Harry. The annoying little bastard who I love so very much. Sometimes I can choke the living lights out of him and other times I can curl up into a ball in his arms and cry into them. For the three weeks, I've put him through hell. I mean I get real cranky. Like one time I felt so bad because we were cooking dinner and he put corn starch instead of flour and I yelled at him so bad, that I think he was tearing up. I said bad things to him and I literally broke down in tears and forced him to forgive me. Harry has been my rock. He's also there when I face time Arlene and he jots down everything I need and actually goes and buys them. He's also been a good listener and advisor when consulting me on adoption.

Sharron occasionally drops by the house, bringing me snacks and stuff. Though Niall does show up here more. He always reminds me that he is here for me, keeping a close on me. Sometimes he brings along Celine. At first I didn't want her knowing about me but once she knew, she acted as my friend and hasn't been rude. I don't know if it was jealousy or something but I'm not sure why I got in a fight with her in the first place. I mean she really is a great person.

When she's over, and my mom and Wilbert's home, jokes fly across the room. It all started when Celine told my mom a funny, little bit insulting joke about Mexicans. Suddenly world war three broke loose in my home. The last time Celine was here, she was saying good bye and my mom came out from the kitchen and said "Asta La Vanca Dull!" it was funny since she said it in her accent but it was a tad bit mean.

My mom has really grown to me too. I mean I hated her for breaking up my family but she's been supportive in my decisions. She told me the worst dark secret that not even my dad knows. My mom got knocked up when she was my age too, by her boyfriend. She ended up getting an abortion. She tells me that when she found out about me, memories of her old self came flooding back. That she knew the process of everything and she wanted me to feel safe.

I think having that sort of information with me, it makes me wonder. I could have had an older brother or a sister. They would have been a better role model for me. Theories just cross my mind.

Suddenly the one month mark hits. I panic.

I wake up for Sunday church and changing into my jeans when suddenly I become too fat for them. They won't clip. And if it does, my belly sticks out. I want to start crying.

I know I'm pregnant but until I see the actual evidence, it becomes real.

I call Harry and wait for him to come.

I lie in my bed and cry. This can't be happening now, it's too soon. He storms in the room, almost knocking down the door "What's the emergency?!" I sob "My pants don't fit Harry." His face floods with red "That wasn't an emergency Emma! I almost killed myself getting here!" I sit up, throwing him a pillow "It is an emergency Harry! They don't fit! Almost none of them fit!"

He leaves and brings my mom and Wilbert. We decided to stay in and watch the movie The Painted Veil.

When the movie ended, I was full on tears. I have never seen such beautiful yet sad movie. I sob in Harry's arms "That could be us Hare! Wait! What if it is us!?" Wilbert chuckles "How can that be you guys Emma?" I sniffle, sitting up "Just here me out okay. So maybe I didn't want to marry Zayn for his fortune or to satisfy my mother's wishes. And maybe I didn't cheat on Zayn. But what if Zayn is shipped to Africa and has to care for the dying. And what if he gets sick and dies! I'm husband less and my child father less." Harry rolls his eyes, throwing me the pillow "I understand pregnancy has woman high on hormones but you need to chilax Emma. I mean really, lower it down, I mean for god sakes you're not even six months yet and you're making drama everywhere." I scoff "No I do not!" Harry rolls his eyes "really? Last week Wilbert forgot to bring your mom's coat from work and you told your mom, in front of Wilbert she should dump him for that. Or when Niall didn't get you the right ice cream flavor and you told Celine that Niall should have known your favorite ice cream flavor since he dated you. Or don't make me bring up the time you almost made me cry."

I stay silent and pet Vicky.  

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