When Fate Play It's Game!

Chapter 7

-Chapter 7-

                The atmosphere was filled with silence while Mr. Allens was treating my wounds. I was starring blankly on the floor thinking of what I have done. I heard Mom’s sob which made me look up to her. Her eyes were bulgy and red. Ma’s right hand was tightly wrapped around her, and her left hand carressing Mom to provide comfort.

                “You should get some rest, Jane!” , Ma advised Mom softly.

                Mom shooked her head slowly as she rises her hand to partly cover her mouth. She’s still in total shock of what she have witness that I was about to do.

                “It’s getting dark outside, Jane. I think it’s better that you get some sleep.” , Ma then again advised Mom, “It’s been a long tiring day for us.” , she continued trying to pull Mom towards the door.

                “No, Claire!” , Mom disagreed, “I won’t leave Mori here alone again!” , Mom continued in a low tone.

                “We’re here, Jane. We’ll take care of her!” , Ma assured Mom.

                “No, I want to be beside her. She might –” Mom gazed at me and then looked back at Ma.

                “She’ll not, Jane! Not anymore!” ,Ma reassured Mom again, “If you want you can sleep in the couch and I’ll wake you up if anything happens. I promised!” , Ma continued and gave Mom a sad smile.

                Mom just nod and Ma asisted her to the couch behind them. Mom lay down comfortably on the couch, her head rested on the arm of the couch.

                Mr. Allens then headed out of my bedroom trying to look for a band aid. I was sitted on the edge of my bed starring at Mom while she was slepping. She’s been so worried about me. And even if I knew it, I still don’t do anything to keep her from worrying.

                Looking at my self now, with these wounds, bruises and scratches, I almost killed myself, I felt guitly. I’ve been so ego-centered to the point of not considering what Mom would feel.

                “Hey, Honey!” , Ma called out breaking my thoughts. She rested her butt on the bed and sat beside me.

                “How’re you feeling?” , she asked. I just look down and form a slight curve on my lips, faking a smile. I don’t know what to say. I’m ashamed of my self. Then, I looked back at Mom.

                Ma and I sat in silence for about a minute or two. I could see in my peripheral vission that she’s not looking at me, but looking to what I’m starring at, Mom!

                “She called me after she heard you screaming.” , she said in low tone, “She’s so worried about you. She’s been crying and crying since you’ve been out of your self.” , she continued.

                Ma then turned her head towards her shoulder to look at me, but I didn’t bother to look back. I’m really of shame.

                “Look, Mori!” , she strarted, “Your Mom loves you so much! She don’t want to lose you, neither am I. And besides –”, she paused and then looked back at Mom, “She already lost David, she can’t afford to lose another closed to her heart!” .

                My body froze after hearing Ma’s words. She’s right, Mom already lost Dad. I’m so selfish to think only of my aches. Mom, she’s hurt too. She’s more hurt than I am. She lost Dad and Me? I was about to kill my self. Mom would be hurt so bad if she lost me. I took forgranted of her feelings and care only of mine.