I wanna be YOURS

*Caroline's POV*"

"We need to break up" my boyfriend Ashton said with pain and sadness in his eyes. I was shocked.
"Wh-what? I love you Ashton, i dont know what i'd do if we break up i-" "We have to, Caroline. My ex, Courtney is pregnant with my baby and i have to take care of my child." i was paralized. i could feel my own tears coming to my face. Why this has to happen to me?! He is the best thing that ever happened to me and now he will be gone.

I was crying, he touched my face and said "i love you a lot Caroline but this is how things have to be" he kissed my forehead. We were both crying now. After the kiss he left my house. And my heart broke in one million pieces.

I was destroyed. I couldnt eat, sleep or talk to anyone for days. I was alone. He was the reason why i lived and now he is gone.

I woke up, i wan't really sure how many days i had slept. I decided to check my messages. I had 16 missed calls from my best friend Mary and 24 from my best friend Luke. I called him. He always makes me smile and thats what i needed to do right now.

"Hey luke" i said on the phone trying not to sound sad
"Hey Care...wait you sound sad what happened" he said worried
"Can you come to my house please? I ...i need to be with someone." I replied
"Sure i'll be there in 5 seconds" he said a bit excited

After that call i got a text from Mary. *I was with Michael today and Ashton arrived crying, what happened?*
*we broke up...D: her ex is pregnant with his baby and he has to take care of the child. I'll be fine, dont worry* i replied. I didnt want to worry her.
*oh god, im so sorry* she replied seconds after.

Meanwhile i was waiting for Luke i ate some ice cream. Food makes me happy.

I heard someone knocking the door so i opened it, with the ice cream still in my hand. It was Luke.

"Oh my god Care, come here" he said. I looked like shit to be honest. My make up was all over my face and i smell bad but he didnt care, and he hugged me.

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*Ashton's POV*
I was a mess. I was crying my eyes out. I lost the girl i loved with all my heart, forever.

I opened the door to my and the boy's house and i walked to the kitchen, in the living-room i saw my friend Michael and his girlfriend Mary cuddeling in the couch, listening to music and kissing. That hurted even more because it reminded me of my relationship with Caroline. Which was over.

When i reached to the kitchen, i saw chocolate in the fridge and i started eating it. I went to my room to cry alone but when i reached there someone was waiting for me. It was my ex, Courtney.

"What the fuck are you doing here" i said in a rude tone.
"Well.." She said as she came closer to me and touched my shirt. "Now that im pregnant...and you HAVE to be with me...i was wondering if we could...you know...do things" she said winking.

I was so annoyed. Hours ago i had to break up with the love of my life and now this bitch wants to have sex with me. Ugh.

"Fuck off Courtney. Because of you i had to break up with the girl i love." I said almost shouting
"C'mon bad boy.." she said touching my abs and trying to be sexy.

I took away her hands and said "Courtney i'll take care of the baby but i wont take care of you. Please leave, NOW"
"Ugh okay Ashton but this wont end like this" she said annoyed and then left.

I was finally alone. I could cry alone, finally. I lye on the bed relaxing and trying to calm down myself when i heard my friend Luke talking on the phone with my ex, Caroline. He was going to her house. Luke was always a good friend to be honest but he has a crush on Caroline since he was a kid. Im sure he would do anything to be with her.

I knew i wanted Caroline to be mine forever but i also knew that it was impossible since i was going to be a dad with another girl and i couldnt put her through that.

I spent the rest of the day sad and sleeping. I dont know how i'll get over this feeling. I will always love her.

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*Caroline's POV*
When i woke up i was in Luke's arms. He calmed me and made me feel better last night. He was my best friend and i was so happy to have him in my life.

"Hey..you woke up beautiful" he said touching my hair.
"Morning Luke" i said with a big fake smile.
"We have plans today" he said excited
"We?" I replied. I was surprised and worried because i looked like shit and i didnt want to leave my house.
"Yes, we are going to the movies!" He said smiling
"Oh Luke thats very nice but-"
"Shh" he cut my off "Im here to make you happy and forget, remember? Thats why im your friend"
"Okay" i agreed.
"I need to go to my house to change my clothes and take a bath, i'll be back in 2 hours" he said kissing my forehead.
"Okay, i'll wait" i replied, he gave me a smile and left.

After he left i checked my messages and i texted with Mary about weird shit for what it seemed 5 minutes. When i looked at the clock i realized i only had 30 minutes to take a shower and get ready for the cinema. I didnt really want to go. I was still depressed and sad. Plus, he reminds me of Ashton.

I took a quick shower and got dressed. I had 15 minutes left so i decided to check my twitter.
Things like "you broke my idol's heart now im breaking something yours" "idiot" "ugly" popped up in my mentions but I decided to ignor them because i was already sad and messed up enough, i didnt need other reason to feel like shit. I went to Ash's tweets and i saw many indirects.
@Ashton5sos: "i will love you forever, never forget that"
@ashton5sos: "i wish i could take back the past and stay with you forever"
@ashton5sos: "i always end up hurting the people i love and hurting myself"
@ashton5sos: "we cant be together anymore and that makes me sick"

His tweets made me feel even worse because he was right, we would never be back again. He had to take care of his future chid and i had to go on with my life no matter how hard it was.
The only thing i did what to tweet a quote from John Green;
"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt"

I heard Luke's car outside my house so i opened the door and went outside. The sunshine hurts tho. I sit down in his car and said hi.
"Hi, ready for the movies?" He said with a big smile.

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*Ashton's POV*
"Dude wake up" i heard a voice that sounded like Michael. I opened my eyes and a big guy with pink hair appeared in front of me.
"Ashton you have been sleeping all day, i know you are depressed but you need to wake up. Plus we have to practice with the band in 5 hours. Get ready" michael said.
"Wait..mike..how do you know?" I said. I never told him Care and i broke up?
"Mary told me you guys broke up and Courtney told me she is pregnant. Congrats on that by the way" he said with a sarcastic tone.
I wanted to punch him. He wakes me up to remind me my shit life and how it was ruined because i had to break up with Caroline.
"Okay dude, i'll go downstairs for breakfast in a few minutes" i said trying not to sound annoyed.
"Fine, im going out with Mary now. Call me if you need anything" he said while he walked to the door.
"Okay" i said annoyed. Why i couldnt have a perfect relationship that never ends like him?

I stood up for first time on what it seemed ages and i reached my phone. When i un-locked it i saw 45 texts of Courtney complaining, 11 of Calum trying to be funny and 12 missed calls from other people but as i kept reading everything, i read a notification. It was a tweet of Caroline. I couldnt help to get excited just by reading her name. Then i read the tweet..."Thats the thing about, it demands to be felt". I felt sick again. I hurted her a lot and i did this. While i was thinking and getting sadder and sadder I heard Luke from downstairs
"IM HOME!" He shouted. I didnt reply.

I changed my shirt and i went downstairs to eat something. Before i reached the kitchen i heard Calum's and Luke's voices. They where talking about my beautiful ex.
"...yeah. Im so happy. Today we are going to the cinema. Just trying to make her happy again. You know.." Luke said. I could feel his happiness, which made me feel EVEN MORE sick. Luke was going on a date with Care? She was going to get rid of me that easily? I felt my stomatch hurt and suddenly i wasn't hungry anymore.
"Thats great Luke. But why about Ashton? He loved that girl. He will kill you if he knows this" Calum replied. He was right. If he puts a finger on Caroline i'll make his life impossible.
"He will understand, plus i met Caroline first and i fell in love with her since i was 12. I had to see her happy with him all this time. If i end up being with her, he has to understand like i did" he said. He was determined. He was going to get her and i knew he will end up with her. He always gets what he wants. The thought of Caroline being with someone else but me made me want to throw up. She was mine. Only mine.
"Anyways, i gotta go now." Luke said
"Good luck and had fun!" Cal replied.
I couldn't let this happen. I need to go to the cinema too.
I was furious. I went to the kitchen where i found Calum eating cereal.
"Hey Ash! You finally decided to go out of your room. Hey im sorry abou-" he said
"Its fine" i cut him off. Im sure i looked like shit but i didnt care, i needed to get to the cinema now. I cant let this happen. I grabbed my keys, i was ready to stop this. "Wait where are you going?" Calum said surprised
"To the cinema." I said.
"Wait Ashton...dont go. Not today..Luke-"
"I know what will happen today with Luke and Caroline. Thats why im going to stop this." I said as i started walking to the door. Calum followed me fast and grabbed my arm "You can't do this Ash. I know you love that girl but you cant. What are you going to do? Ruin their date? Maybe Caroline is happy with him. Isnt that what you want? Her happiness? He said trying to be nice. He was right. If she was happy with him, them well fine. But still, she is mine and this WONT happen.




Thank you for reading! I hope you like it so far! Chapter 2 will be published next sunday aka sunday 3rd! Tweet me at @grungedashton :) i love you xx