Wishing On A New Life

Fears

Youngjae’s POV:

“Morning Youngjae!” I was greeted as soon as I walked into the kitchen. I smiled wide at the elder, whose back was turned to me, and sat down at the table. “Hope you are hungry! I made plenty for us.” He walked over to me and shoved some eggs on my plate. I looked up to give Daehyun a smiling “thank you” when I noticed something different about him.

He wasn’t wearing his mask! I stood up quick and cupped his exposed face. His cheeks were soft under my thumb that drew endless circles upon them. I stared at his plump lips as they formed into a small smile.

“Like what you see?” He giggled. I blushed, but nodded.

“Dae… you are… stunning…” My voice was quiet, mostly due to the lack of usage, but also because of how marveled I was at Daehyun’s beauty.

“Youngjae, you talked! Wow, you’re voice is so… sweet, like honey. Say something else!” I chuckled at Daehyun’s enthusiasm.

“Saranghae Daehyun.” I said confidently, slipping one of my hands into his. He blushed, but kept his hand in mine.

“Nado saranghae, Youngjae.” He leisurely leaned forward, closing his eyes as he gently placed his lips upon mine.

I felt a shock feeling run through my whole body that actually hurt and made me jolt awake. I sat up, panting for air, as I took in my surroundings.

That was the first time I had a dream about anyone else other than my appa. I wonder why that is so.

I went to lay back down when I saw Daehyun lying in my bed. OMO! I forgot he was there! I started to smile at the memory of yesterday. I got out of bed and saw pieces of papers all over my floor, and like the OCD person I was, I started to pick them all up. I reread all of our messages before throwing all but one away.

It’s ok to be afraid. Everyone is afraid of something or another in their life. It only makes you normal and human. Maybe you aren’t ready to face your fears, but it’s been four years since you’ve talked Youngjae. I think it’s time to let your voice be heard. I want to help you in any way I possibly can. ~Dae

I blushed as I looked over at the sleeping boy, before leaving him to finish his nap. I shut the door quietly, making my way to the living room and collecting all my thoughts.

Should have known it was a dream, since Daehyun was cooking food instead of eating it. Was Daehyun really that good looking underneath his mask? If we were to kiss, not saying we would!! But, if we were to, would we shock each other? I have to admit, even though I haven’t seen his whole face, he was still pretty attractive. He probably could have this disgusting mole on his cheek, and I’d still like him. –sighs- Youngjae you are a lost cause.

I jumped and yelped as I felt a tap on my shoulder.

“Oh, sorry Youngjae; I didn’t mean to scare you.” Daehyun said, sitting down next to me. “How did you sleep?” I thought about it, before getting up to grab my white board and writing my answer.

Better than usual, thanks to you~ c:

“Well, I am glad I helped you.” He chuckled, behind his mask. I swear he never took that thing off. I bet he showered with it on!

How did you sleep?

“I slept pretty well too. We should sleep together more often.” I couldn’t help but feel really nervous about Daehyun’s little joke.

Hey Daehyun, you said that everyone has a fear, right? Then what are you afraid of?

“Hmmm… well I am afraid that people will never understand the real me, you know? Ummm… let’s see; I’m scared of spiders, bugs, heights, and people stealing my food.” I let out a small chuckle, clutching my pant leg from the slight pain it caused. I took a deep breath, before replying.

What about your mask? Are you afraid to reveal the true you?

“I… I…” He sighed, placing his hands on his mask. “I’m just ugly, Youngjae. That’s all I’m going to say about it.” He looked away from me, but I touched one of his hands holding his face. He flinched and stared at me. I wanted to tell him. I wanted to talk, but I couldn’t. I just couldn’t say what I wanted, so I wrote to him instead.

Can I see?

“You want to see my ugly face? Why would you want to do that? I don’t want pity Youngjae; I want friends and a normal life.” He snapped at me, which surprised both of us. “I’m sorry… I didn’t mean…” I shook my head to reassure him it was ok. He sighed heavily, before glancing back up to me.

“You really want to see?” I sat shocked for a second, before nodding enthusiastically. “Then tell me.” I went to grab my board, but he took it from me and threw it behind the couch. “With your voice, Youngjae.” I stared at him stunned.

He… He wants me to talk…?

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Hey guys! Another update! Hope you enjoyed! Vote comment and fan! Babyish Jaejae~ on the side... like fangirling over this pic though! He is sooo adorable!