Listening today to her singing
I heard words
If I had met you in church
We would've had dinner
And ended up sinners
I'm glad we didn't meet like that
I close my eyes and think of it
Curled up against him
The smoke in my lungs
The high lets clouds dance at my feet
This isn't how we met
It's where we ended up
I met you by accident
I needed to run from a teacher
Who wouldn't let the past go
So I left
And gained a teacher who encourages
My frail future
You sat across from me
In the space that running left
I smiled at you
Like I do any stranger
Common question fell across the table
But in a different form
Not what I liked
Instead what I hated
I reassured the boy
Of my music taste and open ears
My only redeeming quality
I joke
I didn't realize what was going on
I couldn't see your clockwork heart
Ticking for the first time
In too long
I scorn ignorance
Yet I am ignorant
In the face of affection
I was wrapped around a downfall
As you watched on in pain
I can only imagine the jealousy
Seeing as we're both people
Who are donning green in our hearts
It's a matter if you indulge or not
It's a waiting game
This relationship
I never minded age gaps
Barely saw them
Yet everyone painted cracks as caverns
I don't care what their voices
Screech incessantly
Love is love is love is mine
And I'll wait forever
If only his mouth would say something
Besides
"Too bad you're 15"
The fact is obvious
Move on like the rest of us
I can keep marching forward
Walking from one side to the other
And crossing all the lines
That lie in between
I love his open mind
He loves my punk attitude
Our eyes smile at one another
As we steal kisses in stairwells
And plan elaborate schemes
That will always fall apart
From lack of transportation
"You're amazing, Kat"
And I can only blush
"He's the only one I believe"
I explain
To everyone but him
Because I'm too shy
To show him my broken heart
The bruises can't be cut away
Lying wouldn't help
I pray when he finds the real me
He doesn't run
I don't want us to meet like that
He's seen me in enough moods
To last him
I listen the background noise
And I close my eyes
The sharp cafeteria is replaced
In it's place is a dim basement
Chocking in vapors
The sound of Melee in the back
His shoulder cradling my head
My lips smiling against his neck
Curled up against him
The smoke in my lungs
The high lets clouds dance at my feet
This isn't how we met
It's where we ended up
It's where I belong
It's where I met the real you
And I've fallen head over heels
For my boy
