I was on a high
But I'm crashing like always
He pulled me down
Hurt by my selfish deeds
All I wanted
Were arms around me
But that's too much to ask
Because I've never felt so alone
The civil war
Between the two most important
Men
In my life
Is a violent bloody one
And it's pulling me in
I'm being dragged against
My better judgement
The digs cut through me
The glares are bullets
In my heart
We can't all fake it
For the camera
This is the real world
And I can't stop them
I must wait
For the dust to settle
I loved him
Since that class
They said it takes only
A fifteenth of a second
To fall in love
As soon as I saw that smile
I was gone
Hopeless falling
And he agreed
To be my poison
Because I was
In a way
His antidote of a poisonous
Life
He played me like
His guitar
And treasured me for awhile
But then he fell to ruins
Tearing at the seams
I tried to stitch him up
But all I managed was
Pricking my finger
And sewing me
To his heart
The other side though
Held only understanding
After the stitches were
Cut
He made me laugh
Made me feel cared about
Understood me
I did the same for him
We kept each other here
Compared to hung
From our nooses
Because we have issues
With dealing with life
Especially with shitty ones
I told him of my love
And he retreated from me
As I begged for forgiveness
My lover won't talk to me
About it
Both are too proud
To admit defeat
I feel like I'm the one beaten
But I might just be torn
The pain
Makes it numb
No one can see how hard this is
On me
He isn't a player
And he isn't a liar
Finally
I am not a whore
But who can see anymore
In this smoky battle field
They can't see their enemy
So their
Shots in the dark
Strike me lethally
Just like the snake
Living in my heart
Waiting to strike at the next
Fighter
Their bodies lie before me
I want to save them
But I'm in a useless position
I'm lying myself
Bleeding out
The venom in my soul
They wouldn't listen
The dust has settled
We all lost this
War
