I wrote my story
On her skin
How can she walk away
With four years of everything
Written out in
Blood
Ink
Tears
And dreams
We want to see Boston
But will we even see each other
By years end
Don't walk away
Like I never existed to you
You don't remember the words
I sent you that night
"STOP STALLING"
And I held onto a shred of courage
Hit send
And prayed that my words
"You. It's always been you"
Would answer your question
Of who I had a crush on
Well enough
Three years later
What the fuck happened?
I can't tell if memory is blurred
From tragedy
Or drugs
I was breaking on your birthday
Last year
I tried everything to send
The message I had for you
No one heard me
Even if they came to see me
Even if they promised
The words you called me though
Sometimes show up
In my darkest dreams
I see attention whore spread
Across the skies
Along with the other pet names
You gave me
that early morning war
I've only ever loved you
Only frustrated
When you shove me away
With a killing intent
Out to murder my faith in us
I thought we were fine
You are far from it
I'm sorry I was too blind
Our whole relationship
Was based on communication
And the lack of it
We went backward
We got our life story off our chest
Before jumping into trivia
Can I trust you?
Will you speak in anger
And make the best speech
You will ever regret?
More words
From the outside
She said what I refused to accept
Acceptance meant too much
It meant I failed
It meant I had to let you go
It meant I was broken
"Maybe it's because of
You're mental health"
As I begged you not to drag that horse
Into this story
I stand above
It's rotting corpse
Rotting and crumbling away
Like my faith in what I called love
I'll finally let my bird go
And I know you will never
Come back
To sing to me
Again
