That was never my intention
My own words
Are finally turning against me
"The road to hell
is paved with good intentions"
My intent was always the best
But maybe not to you
I want to spend time
With him
I want to run from them
But I guess I left you behind
As well
Now I'm trying to right
All my wrongs
From this month alone
And I laugh
I've made too many
To go back
I'm only human right
With inhumanly good luck
That always runs out
When I need it most
If I should be caught
For things I shouldn't be doing
But I'm not
Then I know my karma
Is about to screw me over
Like the rest of you
I said it didn't bother me
But along with my scars
I lied
His words echoed in my
Empty head
Rude
Slut
Distrust
Unwanted
Again I wonder if you can hear
When I tell you
My fears
That sinking feel of abandonment
Has me again
I'm stuck in a rut
But it feels like a trench
And I'd rather not peer
Into the face of a bullet
Hit 'em right between the eyes
And always strike me
In the back
But this isn't about me
It's about my apology
Sorry for thoughtless actions
And impulsive words
Sorry for a wicked temper
And a short fuse
Yet there are things
I will never regret
I am not sorry
For the actions I actually
Committed
Not sorry about the words
I really said to you
Not sorry for the clothes
I wear
And style I express
He loves my punk style
And so do I
Don't label my choices
As mistakes
Only I choose where I mess up
I want who cares for me near
And who hates me far
But they all stand in the same
Prison
From 6:45 to 1:55
Every weekday
We all have the same daily
Triggers
I'm sorry I look like
A trigger happy joke
Know that past this pain
I care for you
Always will
Be my sunshine
You always make me happy
Even when you're furious
Because I can't let these
Memories free
I let you go
But I never let go
Of your hand
We're in this storm together
We can share my umbrella
I made it from our dreams
And wishes
And music
Even if it blows away
You can have my jacket
Because yes
Gentlemen still exist
Find one in me
And I will never leave you
Behind
Again
All I ask is for you to stay
And dance with me
In the rain
