Dedicated to Resserell
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After sobbing for hours, I finally felt sleep coming to me. My eyelids were getting heavy and just when I was about to shut them I heard the loud groaning. At first, I thought it must be a street dog howling, but a few moments later, the groaning became louder. It was not an animal. It was a person in pain, My eyes widened in realization.
I threw the pillow away and climbed down the bed. Bolting out of my room, I found Zach shivering and groaning loudly as if he was in physical pain. I rushed to his side. I sat next to him and saw he was scratching his neck, rigorously while his head hung low. He was tapping his foot repeatedly while coughing violently.
I know what is happening, I've seen this before.
I quickly ran into the kitchen and poured some water. I rushed back to his side and offered him the liquid but being a stubborn that he is, he declined.
"Drink." I ordered.
He shook his head again and groaned in annoyance.
"I said, drink." My patience was getting thin as the seconds passed. He shook his head again.
"Look, you need to calm yourself. So just drink."
"I don't need water. I need my shot. Right now." He was irritated, to say the least.
"Shut up and drink." I ordered, and this time he snatched the glass of water from my hand and gulped it in one swift motion. The entire time my gaze was fixed on him. I realized this when he snapped his fingers in front of me, bringing me back from my thoughts.
What do I do now? I wondered looking away from him.
Few awkward minutes later, felt his head on my lap. I immediately froze in my spot at the sudden touch. Slowly, I peered down to witness him snuggling while his eyes were shut. He curled up like a baby while his hands were wrapped around my waist, caging me in my spot. I know he's trying to sleep. I know how difficult this is for him. I know how much it hurts him. I know he's trying to distract himself because I've seen all of this before.
Ethan would do the same whenever he'd want to distract himself. He would pull me closer to him and snuggle like a baby. I would hold him and sing to him until he fell asleep.
He's not Ethan, you fool! My brain reminded me.
But he's finding difficulty in sleeping. The least you can do is help him. My heart spoke softly.
My fingers found their way to his hair. He flinched at the sudden contact but relaxed immediately. I must say, his hairs were quite soft and silky. I could stroke them all day. Focus! My fingers did their magic, as Ethan used to say and he seemed to like it. Like an old habit, I found myself humming the old song that I'd sing only for Ethan.
Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights are long
'Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy
When my world is falling apart
When there's no light
To break up the dark
That's when I,
I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I,
I look at you
When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone
When my world is falling apart
When there's no light
To break up the dark
That's when I,
I look at you
When the waves Are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I,
I look at you
You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that cover me
All I need
Every breath that I breathe
Don't you know you're beautiful
When the waves Are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I,
I look at you
I look at you,
You appear just like a dream to me.
I heard soft snores by the end and it seems Zach was sleeping peacefully in my lap, his eyes were shut but I didn't miss noticing his brows being slightly scrunched. I reached out to brush his forehead lightly to straighten the lines on his forehead. I felt his grip around me loosen, he has finally relaxed. A small smile crept on my face when his mouth slightly curved into a tiny smile. Maybe he's dreaming something nice? I traced his jawline lightly before I let my head fall back on the couch.
The next morning, I woke up with severe pain in my back. My butt was numb and my neck strained.
I'm never gonna sleep on that couch. It hurts like a bitch!
I stretched a bit, massaging my strained neck, and realized that I no longer have the cocky stranger in my lap anymore.
Where did he go?
I quickly scanned the room, even called out his name few times. But I was only greeted with silence.
He might've left. My brain suggested.
My heart sank at the thought. He can't leave me like that. How could he?
And why is that? My heart intervened.
Well, for starters it's too risky for him to leave.
It doesn't matter if he left or if he's doing fine or not. The voice in my head sounded so rude that even felt bad.
Does it? I heard a tiny voice coming from my heart.
Pushing the voices of my head and heart I decided to find that idiot. I silently prayed that he doesn't do anything stupid while I made my way to my room. I changed into comfy clothes in one swift motion and rushed to the door.
I swung the door open to step out but was greeted with the most terrible sight. All my blood seemed to drain as I stood there frozen in my place while my jaw hung low.
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