If I Only Knew.

Chapter 19

They doubted that? Why in the bloody hell would they doubt that? I've never showed any interest in Niall, heck we've been friends for so long I don't think even if I did for a second I would remember. The question that kept coming back was why did he have a disappointed look on his face? Was he upset because I said no or was it because he knew they would something and be harassed about it? It's whatever really I don't know why I keep over thinking?

Ok stop thinking.

"Reagan!" I heard all them yell as I jumped.

"What?" I said as Niall laughed, oh must've zoned out. Ha

"Zayn... Truth or Dare?" I asked him since I had to go again because of Louis... Thanks.

"Umm, imma gonna have to go with truth just because I don't want to be having to post a nude on twitter." He said as I laughed... I'll be easy on him.

"Umm have you ever been jealous of one of the boys because of a girl?" I said as he nodded and I held my hands up in a 'go-on' motion.

"Well when we became famous you know? Umm Niall kept talking about how great you were and well I was mad because I didn't have a bunch of friends back home, and Liam and Danielle and Eleanor and Louis, but I found someone so I was happy and I still am." He said as I nodded completely understanding what he was saying... Wait what!?

"Niall kept talking about me! What did he say?" I said as Zayn looked at him and Niall made a little move I couldn't make out but Zayn nodded.

"Just that he's never had a friend like you, especially a girl." He said as I nodded... I think he was missing something.

"Ok" I said as I got up to get some food.

I walked into the kitchen as footsteps followed... Probably Niall. I walked over to the fridge looking over at the clock, 8:30 ugh they probably won't be back for another 3 hours at the most.

"Hey you okay?" I heard that Irish accent say.

"Yeah I'm fine." I said as he came closer.

"No you aren't! I can tell.." He said as I looked a bot confused... He could tell?

"You can tell... How can you tell?" I asked as he looked at my eyes not letting the glimpse go away.

"You get his little look, like your eyes go a bit darker. Darker I figured out from many years of being near you that you get a darker color to your eyes when your upset or worried and brighter when your happy or exited in some way." He explained... They do!

"What" I said with a bit of a giggle.

"Yeah so Reagan what's wrong?" He asked me again, well now since he knew something I didn't want to ask other tell I had to.

"Well One: I'm upset because I'm worried for Haley and Harry. Two: I feel like you told more to what Zayn was talking about. And three: I can't quite make out three but it's there." I said as he nodded sitting on the counter.

"Well harry will treat Haley fine... He really likes her Reagan, honestly I've never seen him more exited to take someone out before in my years of knowing him." He explained the part I didn't think Harry would do. "The thing Zayn said it was true but I was explaining umm..." He said as looked a bit worried/confused.

"Go on I don't mind" I said as he nodded.

"Well I did like you one point in my life..." He said as I smiled... Wait what!? "Well before I left I realized that I liked you the whole time, but I was just confused, I would always be sad but when you came around I would be happy." He said as I looked confused, I understood where he was coming from.

"Niall..." I said as he smiled but lowered his head.

"I knew it was stupid. Everyone would always tell up we should date... We were going to end up being married and having kids. It finically hit me when I realized I was leaving you and I wouldn't get to see you every day anymore, not getting to help you when your down. That's one of the reasons why I couldn't call... I told the boys that and they understood. I was afraid you didn't feel the same and if you don't I don't mind now... I've learned to not mind, but now that you know it won't be the same as it was a few moments ago... I'm not looking for anything it's just that I still do and I can't help it." He said as I smiled... I didn't know why I wasn't joking with him being like 'stop your kidding' or laughing. But somewhere deep down I think that was number three, the thing I couldn't figure out.

"We should go... Just tell Harry we went home. Call me I guess?" He said as I couldn't say anything but all o could do was nod.

"Niall I don't wanna... Oh" I heard Louis say.

"Bye Reagan!" All of them said as I waved Ina. Bit of disappointment.

"Bye" i said as I turned to walk to my room as someone grabbed me.

"I know that was a lot but I had to tell you it was killing me, please just like tell me later I guess.. I just do t want it to be awkward... You know, think about it." He said as I smiled and nodded. He hugged me, and kissed me on the cheek. Making butterfly's? What BUTTERFLIES!

"Bye Niall" I said as he let of and walked out of the door.

What am I going to do? That was the third one the one I felt, the one I couldn't figure out.

It was Niall.