Not A Visitor [StudxStud] COMPLETED!!

7- But She'll Never Know.

[may be some typos..]

Regina

I tore away from her and ran up the stairs so quick that i tripped twice as i lifted my foot up on the last step.

I was so embarrassed, mad and annoyed of her all at the same time it wasn't even funny.

I can't believe she tried me like that...and actually succeeded. The way she had me pinned down to that damn refrigerator i couldn't move a muscle to get out of her hold.

All i wanted to do was get away from her.

After what she pulled i was ecstatic. More important than anything else i could feel myself throbbing the entire time she was against me, and it was growing. I felt like i was gonna burst into a fit if i didn't get away from her soon.

No matter how much i tried to control it i couldn't. That's why i was freaking out so much and the worst part was i knew that she knew it.

Trying to hold myself back gave me even more a reason to be excited because she was right there. Right there in front of me-- on me, and i could've just flipped her over so easily and tasted her lips.

The way her breathing made her chest flare against mine took me to places in my head that were surely not acceptable. For those quick moments, it felt like hours of being teased and i hated it. I shouldn't even be feeling this way towards her.

The things that i said to her just popped in and popped off quicker than i could even calculate how fast or in what way i was saying it. But nevertheless it all was true and i do feel like she needed to know that shit.

Hell, i love my aunt to death and i really do believe i would take a bullet in the heart for her but i know her and she doesnt stay interested in anything too long. Now im not saying she's a hoe because she's not-- but she isn't the one for relationships she just feeds off of intimacy and the connections....that's it.
I don't think I've ever seen her with anyone really like that since her 30's. So i don't know, maybe it was because of a heart break or something but ever since i was little she ain't been down with nobody like this....or like that i guess i should say.

And you know, to just think that a young ass girl-- no older than me could just change all of that out of my aunt to make her want something for real is just complete bullshit to me because she gone be gone in a snap of a finger. They seem like they trying but, tuh.

Let's be real.

I've learned how to configure myself into shutting people out before they can to me so I'm a pro at this shit now. I'm not gonna get to know you, let you grow on me, then leave like everyone else has cus it always happens. It never fuckin fails.

My attitude is just an accessory but I know that i can't slip up like that again. Making what i felt so damn visible to her.

That's my aunty's tool. She don't belong to me. I cant affiliate myself in anyway with her. That's so wrong.

What would Aunty think of me if she even suspected of me thinking that way? Man, hell nah. That'd be horrible. A spit in the face to her just throwing every genuine gesture, or action of concern and love from her that I've ever received, right in the garbage. And that's the last thing I'd ever wanna do to her because she's like a mother to me-- she is a mother to me and it's just too much to risk...

After closing my door-- well slamming it prone to my temper, i quickly slid out of my boxers and checked the insides of them.

Yup, i knew it.

I looked a second more and it just amazed me of how wet i was. Let alone my clit's been tingling badly, just aching to be tamed. I haven't gotten anything in i don't know how long and i don't masturbate unless its for real for real necessary. I refuse to masturbate after that, it'd be way too much guilt when we see each other again.. I can't believe she actually has this much of an affect on me already.
I've never been so damn offended by nobody before let alone a stud.