In Love ~ |Twenty Øne Piløts| A Joshler fanfic

Oh No

                                                                                  ***Josh's POV***

She walked me to the living room and, suspiciously enough, told me to close the door behind me. As I look through the crack right before closing it, I noticed that Tyler was staring at me, looking me up and down. Once his eyes met mine, I smiled and he looked away, blushing. Then, I quickly close the door  and walk over to Jenna, who's standing in the middle of the room with her hands on her hips.

"Listen Josh, if there's something else going on between you and Tyler, you can tell me." She started.

"What are you talking about?" Shit! Had she figured out about me and Tyler? Has Tyler liked me for a long time and I haven't noticed? Has he seen the way I looked at him, god he is so beautiful.

"I'm only kidding Josh, jeez. Although, I did want to talk to you for real." Jenna says this, laughing, as if I didn't just have a mini panic attack.

"Oh, right. Uh-so what did you want to talk to me about?" I tried to laugh while saying this, but it sounded more like a dolphin dying, which I cover up with a fake cough.

She stares at me with a confused look for a second before stating. "Me and Tyler are worried about you." She practically repeated what Tyler said to me, right before I made out with him. Shit, I actually made out with him, holy fuck.

"Oh, I know, Tyler and I just talked about this." I say, anxiously inching towards the door to be with Tyler.

"I know, but ever since Tyler started to notice you being sad, he's been acting..." She pauses, thinking. "...less like himself, for lack of better words. It's like you guys feed off of each others emotions. I just really need you to be happy, for Tyler's sake."

"So, basically, what you're saying is that you want me to be happy so that Tyler is." I say, holding back tears. "You're saying that I should CHOOSE to be happy so Tyler is. I really wish I could. I REALLY wish that it was a CHOICE!" I couldn't take it anymore. I started bawling and I heard the door open, although my back was turned to it, the overwhelming aroma of peppermint swept across the room. He probably came in after hearing my screaming at Jenna. I fell onto my knees, covering my face. I was an embarrassment. I felt an arm go around my shoulders, which made my heart jump but I still didn't look at him. He probably hates me, I would.

"Josh, are you okay?" Tyler's comforting voice asks. "I heard you crying, I'm sorry if I interrupted you guys, but I wanted to be sure that you were okay."

"I'm sorry." Was all I could choke out.

"Don't be, I'm sorry for what I said." I heard Jenna say as I looked up at her and Tyler. "Be happy for yourself, then we will be too."

I tried to stand up, but my knees were shaking and my leg was sore from the cut I gave myself. I fell, and started crying again. They both looked down at me, worried.

"Are you okay Josh?" Jenna asked me.

"Yea, I'm fine." I lied, weakly trying to get up.

Tyler held onto my arm and lifted me as I struggled to stand. He still looked worried.

I hugged them both, essentially using them to stand.  "I'm so happy I have you guys." I truthfully said. No one had every cared about me as much as them.

***AUTHOR'S NOTE***

oh jeez oh dANG! am I right? This fucking chapter killed me a bit while I was writing it. It was immensely difficult to figure out what they would talk about, then I figured it out while listening to them. I honestly am not too proud with this chapter, but I'll just with it. Maybe I'll change a few things here and there. Thanks for reading this garbage! XOXO