A Payment To Live

The turn Around

Drew POV

Did she think I do not know those kind of action? Did she really think I'm not immune on those when I have ladies who floats there self on me. She's funny but I find it sexy and entertaining for I know she's uncomfortable doing so. And seeing her right now sleeping with my shirt on is really a turn on but I have to restrain myself. I have an early flight. I need to reserve so much energy if I want to get home alive. I hope she can wait. I kiss her temple and put on the blanket properly. I have to get ready for my staff are all waiting for me.
This is for her anyway, for them.

Amanda POV

A News have come in. "The Most Wanted Bachelor Finally Met The Girl of His Dreams?"
Wow! A question mark? A picture of them together holding hands for the partnership but turns out to be a partner in life as well. I sound sarcastic but I can no longer take this.
He didnt do anything last night. He leave without a word. He didnt bother to call. He just freaking ignore me as if I'm not a mother of his two beautiful creature. And then this?
He is such a Jerk! Jerk! Jerk!

I'm out! I give up! I don't like it anymore.
I will just finish my project. Let him have custody of the twins but a weekend with me. I will let him do whatever he wants with his life. And go after the twins Bday. This is my Final decision.

I'm with my Siblings together with the twins in the park nearby having picnic. Connie and Dalia is playing with them while Brian talks with me "I know somethings bothering you Sis, do you mind telling me? Maybe I can help" he said smiling
"I don't know, it's all complicated. I felt like giving up. But I want to be with them. But I can't feel him. He doesn't feel the way I feel. You know what I mean?" I said sounds desperately
"If you give up now will you be happy or you will just end up incomplete?" He said.
I do not answer for I don't know how to answer his question. Will I be happy and incomplete? When I turn my back on them the first time I felt unhappy and incomplete. If I let go this time? Will I make it if I didn't make it the first time already?. I'm bothered.

I'm back on that avoidance acting again but this time it is for real. I have to do this, so that I will be ready when I go. I was talking with my hired lawyer on the phone. "Thank you Attorney. Yes please I want the paper on Friday. OK then. Thank you, see yah! Bye" I end the call. But shocks consume me when he was at my back looking angry at me.
"A Lawyer? A custody documents? Your leaving? You want to work this out and now your leaving?!" His yelling with anger in his eyes.
"Don't dare yell at me! I can clearly hear you. Don't ask me why I'm leaving when you clearly showing me every reason to leave. You don't want this! You don't want everything I'm offering you. Why don't you just get back to wherever Ms Perfect Victoria give you everything you ever wanted! Because I don't give a single damn about it!" I said with the same raging anger he has.
"So this is all about jelousy and your insecurities?" He asked
"No! I'm not jelous and definitely I'm not insecure! I'm most delighted of my imperfections, Skills and talents and Im very content with my looks" I said turning my back on him.
"Don't you turn your back on me Woman!" He encircle his arm on me pushing me towards his Sexy firm body. He turns me around so we will be facing each other. I look at in the side avoiding the intense feeling I'm restraining since the day I got back. Come on don't look up I said to myself for I have this urge to kiss him intimately and wrap my arms around his neck and play with his hair. "Look at me Amanda!" He command "Please look at me Love" he said once more sounds frustrated. This is his first time in a long time to say those endearment again. I see longing in his eyes. I only notice that he had buggy eyes and he needs shaving. He looks ruggedly handsome though. I am to look down but he lift my chin and lower his lips to mine. "I'm sorry Love, it took me so long to realize how much a Jerk and stupid of me not minding that I was hurting you so much already" he said.
"Your truly a Jerk! I didn't even know why did I fall inlove with you in the first place! But I still find myself a reason in loving you more" I said tears starting to fall on my eyes.
"You- you love me? Your inlove with me?" He asked with a shock all written on his face.
I nod while smiling and looking on his eyes.
"Don't ask me why and when did I fall inlove with you because I dont know the answer. All I know is that I love you and I can't leave my life without you and our twins" I said.
He kissed me. "I Love you more Love. You just didn't know how much I waited for you to say that, I thought this time will never come. Oh thank you Lord, Thank you Love" hugging me tightly.
I have to tap him at the back for I can't breath any longer.
"OopsS Sorry" we both laugh.
He kiss me once more and this time I was the one who push him in the bed on top of him.
We made loved and it was amazing. "Admit it! Your jelous of Victoria" he said while we hug each other on bed with a blanket covering our naked body.
"Yeah I did but I was never insecure of her" I said
"Yeah you shouldn't be jelous and you shouldn't be insecure coz your very fine for me. Your perfect for me Love" he said with so much emotion. I felt like crying. "No please don't cry Love, From now on no more secret"
"No more secret" I said.
"And don't forget to say those 3 words along with action" He said teasing.
"Then you better stuck with it too lover boy" I said smirking then
I kiss him with all the love on me.