My mate's who?!

What the hell is heat?!

*Ally's pov:
I woke up with a start, as I felt a sharp pain in my lower stomach. We had been living in the pack house for a few weeks now and its like a dream. I cook food for people, I clean, and I boss people around. I groaned again as the pain kept getting worse. I got up and basically dragged myself down the stairs to cook. As I was walking to the kitchen, the pack was staring at me and sniffing the air. What the actual fuck? I just shook it off and went to cook. When I get to the kitchen the pain is so immense that I fall to the ground. It's like having period cramps but 10x worse. Groaning in pain, I slowly get up, with the help of the counter. Limping to the medicine cabinet, I grab the Advil. I don't know what this is, but it's not pleasant. Taking a few I swallowing them quickly. I make the food and call the pack to eat. Again people were staring at me, and again I shrug it off. "Wait. The Luna's in heat? That'll be a hoot. Wait till alpha comes down and gets a whiff. Her scent is amazing." I hear multiple people whisper. What's heat? I'll ask Dinah later. Soon enough, Dinah comes racing down the stairs like she usually does with the twins. "Hey what's up guys! What's that sme-" she didn't finish her sentence. I could see her eyes turn black and she set down the twins. She ran over, grabbed me, and put me on the counter. I squealed loudly. "Umm, h-hello milika. Would you like to join me for breakfast?" I ask quietly. She narrowed her eyes and sniffed me. Like all over. I tensed up and pushed my body against the cabinet. I didn't know what was wrong with her but I didn't like it. "Um can someone please tell we what is happening and what the bloody hell is heat? I yelled out angrily. The pack shrunk back and looked at me like I had four heads. A short girl my age with long black hair raised her hand and I turned to her. "Yes?" I asked impatiently. "Um Luna, heat is...sex." She said timidly. "What!" I roared. " when a female goes into heat, it's a sign that she is ok with her new surroundings and that she is ready to mate. It happens mostly to unmarked mates. And the pain that you are feeling is the need for your soul to connect with your mates. It only hurts worse for you, because you're the Alpha's mate." She squeaked out. My jaw just dropped. "What I your name?" I growled. "Camila. I'm one of Dinah's best friends." I turned back to milika, who was sniffing my hair. "Ok milika, I need to talk to Dinah. Can you please change back?" I asked sweetly. She almost put up a fight, but I pulled her in and gently kissed her nose. Suddenly I had my Dinah back. "Dinah, I need you to be open to what I'm about to say. And I know that you arn't supposed to say no to an alpha, but I have too. I'm sorry Dinah but I'm not ready to mate. No matter what my "smell" gives off, every time I think of being romantic I get physically sick. It was to much for me to go through at 14 and I don't think I can do it now." I said softly. She snarled and I had the bad side of her again. "What do you mean no? We are destined to be, everything is working! Why can't you truly love me? I've accepted the kids and I've taken them as my own. I have done everything to make you feel welcome. What did I do wrong?" She asked angrily while pacing. "It's just that I can't stand the feeling of someone getting that close and personal with me again. Might I remind you I was RAPED at the age of 14? And by multiple guys no less. I can't think of giving myself to someone, because I have nothing left to give! All of myself, that I was saving, and waiting to get to, it was all taken. So no I can't mate with you. Because if I do I might actually physically kill myself, knowing that I couldn't defend myself. I can't go through what I went through again. Whether I give consent now or not." I cried out the last part. Not a sound could be heard beside the crying of the two broken lovers. Her face was filled with rage and sadness.  "What like I would ever hurt you? Like I would do you wrong? Like I would make you feel as though you had to defend yourself? How? How could you not tell me any of this? How long has this been bottled up? I know that you can't do those things and I wouldn't ask you to, if I didn't know what would happen. Don't you remember? If I don't have something to go off of here, i WILL DIE! And I wouldn't ever ask this of you if I knew I would be around to see the effects. But if I don't live, then I won't." She yelled at me. I gasped and let out a sob. How could I forget? I pushed passed her and everybody else, and ran to our room. Pushing open the door, locking it, and hiding in the closet. It was safe to me and I felt ok here. Until I realized that Dinah wanted to talk to me. And when I didn't answer she got angrier and angrier. "I swear to god Ally, if you don't open this door, I will break it off its hinges." Milika growled darkly at me. I know she wants to protect me, but all she was doing right now is making it worse. "One...two...three!" I heard shattering and the next thing I know, she's in the room. Milika walked in and sniffed all over. Trying to find me. She continued until she found my scent. Running over to the closet, she threw open the door. I thought she wouldn't find me, until I realized that she could see my feet. I slowly went to tuck them in, but it was too late. Next thing I know, I have a steaming, livid, dark eyed, mate in front of me. Grabbing me harshly, she pulled me to her, while I started whimpering. She was really starting to scare me. Pulling me over to the bed, she threw me on it. I tried to speak but all that came out was a squeak. She grabbed me again and pulled me to her. Reaching over, she yanked off my shirt and pants. I was really scared at this point. I'm sitting on her bed in tight black lace underwear, I don't feel safe. She gets up and walks to her drawers. Reaching inside, she grabs a giant sweatshirt and a pair of shorts. I'm a little surprised at this. "Um, Dinah?" I whisper, but a growl silences me. I look up at her and the black is still there. Pulling me forward she pulls my arms above my head and places the shirt on me. Next the shorts and we're done. Moving to the middle of the bed she pushes me farther into it. Putting her body in between my legs, she lays down. Just lays down. Arms wrapped around my waist, head on stomach and part of chest. Pulling the covers around us, I just cry silently. Not because this wasn't good, it was because it was all that I wanted. To be loved, safe, cared for, and put above everything. She was my knight in shining armor and I was her queen. Pulling me closer we fell asleep. As I was drifting off I heard her mumble, "we are going somewhere in the morning so get ready." And with thoughts of wonder, of what was gonna happen, I drifted off into a peaceful slumber. Knowing all was alright. For now.