Meet You In Paris (Jonas Brothers Fan Fiction)

I Need To Figure Out

Kendra's POV

   The next night nick surprised me with tickets to their Chicago concert. Well they weren't really tickets, he just took me with him and I was able to be backstage the whole time they were performing. From the studio session, i knew they had a lot of new songs for the fans and I'm excited for the fans to hear them . 

We had just arrived backstage and everyone was getting ready for the show.

"You'll be okay back here?" Nick    asked.                                              

"Yea, I'll have my baby mama with me" I replied with a smirk, referring to Danielle. Nick chuckled. 

"Okay, cool."

"JONAS, JONAS, JONAS!" The fans were chanting their name , waiting for them to come on stage. They sounded so excited for these three brothers. 

"You better go" I offered. 

"Yea" he put on his guitar and gave me a kiss on the cheek. 

"I'll see you after, ok?" He said.

"Yea, good luck!" I hollered as he ran on stage and he sent me a smile back as his reply.                                            

"CHICAGOOOOO!" And the crowd went wild. 

"Hey," someone patted me on the shoulder, "you might need this. It was Danielle and she was holding up sum earplugs . I nodded gratefully and put them in my ear. We waited there together watching the boys from backstage, back at it again.

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By midnight, the boys were already on the road to Indiana where their next show was. An hour before that, Nick took me to the airport personally.

"So, is this a repeat like last time?" I asked, finally breaking the silence that was turning unbearable. Nick was silent for a moment before he replied.

"No, absolutely not" he replied surely.

"Really? And what makes you think that this tour isn't going to ruin whatever we have now, just like the other tour?" I felt like sobbing now. I felt like everything was trying to keep us apart. I don't know how Danielle does it, because it is very difficult.

Nick didn't respond, instead he kissed me so unexpectedly that I dropped my bags. He kissed me slow and gentle as if I would break. At that moment, I thought I was. Im getting so sick and tired of not being able to control my relationships.

"Flight 669"

The sound over the intercom, brought us back to reality and the fact that Nick and I were going to be miles and miles apart.

I picked up my bags and I was going to walk off without another word.

As I was walking away, I thought of the last time I was in this airport. it hadn't been Nick chasing after me, it had been Ricky. Right then, I compared the two.

As I was thinking and walking, I heard Nick say, "Kendra I Love you and I'll be right on your doorstep right after the tour is over, I promise."

I hurried back to him.

"I need to figure out what I want, Nick.I need to figure out if this relationship with you is what I want; This relationship that's complicated and all over the place. There's no doubt in my mind that I love you, but is love ever enough? Happiness is suppose to be apart of this love... Nick, im not feeling happy right now. I'm feeling sad and heartbroken all over again. You're this person that does a million things, where I can't keep up. I need to figure out if I want to do those million things with you, or if I want to be in a more grounded and simple relationship." I rushed out.

Nick seemed to have gotten pale and I understood why: the girl that he love just told him she needs to figure out if she loves him enough to be with him.

I kissed his cheek and picked up my bags.

"So, don't show up on my doorstep when the tour is over,  Nick. I need to figure this out and when I do, I'll let you know. Goodbye"That was the last thing I said before I walked on the plane without looking back.

Nick is the popular rockstar. Ricky is the regular guy from Chicago. Nick goes on travels unexpectedly and Ricky can choose his regular day schedule. Nick loves me, and Ricky loves me.

I love them both, but the question is which one do I love more?

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I updated, yay!

it's been a while..

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Kendra Jonas ♡♥♡