I Hate You, but I Love You!

Chapter 12: Help me out in Calculus., Coffee J!

At this news my eyes flew open and I basically fell out of bed. I had had a restless sleep last night - falling asleep then waking back up, experiencing nightmare after nightmare...

Clothes were on the ground and I tripped over them and almost fell over on my way to getting up. Clair started snickering as she collected her books.

Once on my feet my vision went black for a couple seconds as the blood balanced itself out throughout my body. I stood there all wobbly and blinked as my sight came back.

"A little out of sorts this morning, are we?" Clair joked.

"Long day at work." I replied neutrally as I made my way to the bathroom.

I washed my face in the mirror and composed myself. It's a new day today. Just pretend like nothing happened last night.

I got ready and was out the door 15 minutes later with Clair at my side.

As we walked she chattered on about various non-related topics and I focused on listening to her instead of thinking. I felt myself starting to relax and go back to my usual self as Clair distracted me on our walk. By the time we walked into the college classroom I felt calm and collected. Clair and I chose a seat and chatted and laughed while we waited for class to start.

Last night didn't have to matter. I didn't have to think about it ever again. I just had to focus on living my life and becoming the person I wanted to be.

Nevertheless, I felt a painful ache in my heart.

"Okay people, class is over. I'll see you lot on Wednesday."

Professor Parkins dismissed us and Clair and I collected our stuff and made our way out the door.

"Yeesh, sometimes when I'm in that class I feel like my brain is about to explode." Clair complained.

"Tell me about it." I replied miserably as we made our way out the building. A cool breeze brushed against my bare arms causing goose bumps to surface.

"Speaking of miserable classes, how's Calculus going?"

I laughed sarcastically. "I'm just about ready to drown myself in the Pacific Ocean."

"Awh honey it's okay..." Clair rubbed my arm reassuringly. "You'll get through it." Suddenly a wide grin appeared on her face and she giggled. "Besides, aren't you going to have a smoking hot tutor sometime soon?" She winked and I groaned. "Yet another reason why I should go drown myself in the Pacific Ocean." I grumbled.

Clair laughed and changed the subject, sensing my agitation. "Hey, I've got an idea." She punched my arm playfully. "Let's get coffee."

I smiled. "You know you are the reason why I've become such a caffeine addict right?"

"Uh huh, keep telling yourself that. The way I remember it is that you were the one who got me hooked, remember?"

I laughed. "Clair, that doesn't even make sense. How could I become a coffee addict if I was already a coffee addict?"

Clair opened her mouth to say something but froze her face comically. She looked up as she thought of a reply but closed her mouth and shrugged. "Well, it made sense in my head. Anyhow..." I laughed again and shook my head at her as she ordered our drinks.

I went and grabbed us a seat and checked my Instagram and Facebook. As I scrolled through my Insta feed I remembered when Brian had liked my picture about three weeks ago. I mean, that's considered to be weird, right? I think it's weird.