I See You

Choose

When Mystic's eyes turn goldish and voice deepens, I know it's her shift, Missy, who is thankfully not a wolf.

(What is this sudden aversion of dogs, wolves and like?)

Missy is adorable. So hyper and joyous. I wish more people were like that.

"Mmmmm! Mate, you gorgeous thing you!"

Oh shut up voice, I need to find out what is going on. I scold absently.

"Who's Azalea?" I ask again.

"I'm Missy!" She shouts at me, so so very excited. I nod, with a little smile. Adorable, that one.

Of course she's adorable! My mate would be nothing less than perfect!

Shhh, you!

"I recognize that voice from the hallway," I giggle, telling her, "So who's Azalea?"

"Say it! Say it mate, and I'm free... say it mate! We need to meet-"

Hush!

"AZALEA IS MY MATE... YOUR TIGER!"

"WHOO HOOO! YES!"

MY WHAT? I HAVE A TIGER TOO?!

AWESOME (SCARY) AWESOME!

I try to speak, but it's like I'm weightless once more. But it's worse because I can't move, only see, like a person watching a movie.

To my horror I can hear myself speak in a more grovelly voice.

"Mate! It me! I love you so much! I- uh oh..."

Missy is shocked. So shocked that the gold eyes go back to green.

Mystic panics. "Azalea? Azalea, we love you too, but you have to give Kaitlyn back control! You have to!"

Oh my god. Oh. My. God. Headache! Shit! Why do I have a headache if she's in control of my body?

Azalea has us frown. "But I want to meet you guys. Kaitlyn has had me unconsciously locked away for years! I want to run on all fours! I want to be free!"

Mystic looks at us apathetically. "I know us too, but there's a way to do this, and you taking control isn't good-"

"Why not?" Demands my cross, pouting captor.

"Because she doesn't know how to survive in there, as the passenger yet. She doesn't know how to shift yet, so that you and she can complement each other, and be in harmony!" She takes a moment before continuing, "If you stay in control before you two can become whole together, who knows what could happ- Azalea? Tell me what's going on!"

"I don't know! We hurt! I can't... I can't-"

All sounds of everything fade and my sight disappears.

I can't tell you where I am, if it's dark or light, it just is. Its nothing, but not nothing as everything is something. And I can't place anything and ground myself to anything.

I feel like there's a tug of war going on and I'm the rope. One side feels like cold, but burning and numbing what I can only describe as tentacles, jerking me one way, while claws dig in, ripping me the other.

It's not a physical occurrence either. It's on a more painful mental level, as if I were fighting for the life I lost and regained somewhat.

Do I want to fight for the pain of claws, surely indicating life is still an option?

Or do I go with the numbing tentacles that are what I have dreamed of, possibly death?

What have I left to stay for? I'm dead but not, and possessed, but not.

I've got confusing feelings for the girl of my dreams.

My family thinks I'm dead. Which I am. Aren't I? I was and I am.

I'm so damn confused. I might be going crazy. Hell, I've already gone crazy. I'm so confused.

Am I crazy?

Aren't I dead now?

Choose...

What are my choices, really?

Everyone says there's always another choice, another way. That we have more than two choices. Where did of hear that before? "My parents always said there's always another way!" Who said that? It doesn't matter now, I guess I forgot.

Choose.

Do I stay or go? I've wanted to go for over a year now!

You've wished for this for over a year. You have tried everything. You can't cut yourself, you can't jump from high places. You can't do much anything since you died you're stuck! Let go!

Choose.

But Mystic Quincy! She's the only thing that could hold me back. Make me stay here...

Yes! Yes, hold on to that, you love Mystic. You dream of Mystic. Azalea is a part of you just as Missy is Mystic! Two halves of a whole, the only four perfectly matched puzzle pieces of a four pieced puzzle! Together you are both whole. So if you die, they die as well!

Choose.

Am I crazy? Wait, I've already asked that...

Mystic-

Killed you.

No, that was an accident! It was not on purpose! You saw how she looked at you! She loves you! It could've been anyone!

And that makes it any better? She still killed you. And you swore vengeance on the person responsible for years, didn't you?

Well, yeah, I swore I'd haunt them-

Yes, yes. You should stay! Stay to haunt Mystic as you swore! Stay! Stay, love Mystic. Love Missy, they need you like they need air! If you die so does Azalea, who is both you and not you. That's two lives gone! You're something new! Take the chance and figure it out! Stay, and find out who you really are, find out what you really are! Stay! Love conquers all! Hasn't that been a reoccurring thought your whole life? Even after when you were a ghost? Love and Stay!

No, rules and terms can change. Vengeance on the one who killed you, who took you from your mom, dad, you little brother. Who robbed you of your life, your happiness, getting to see your brother grow up! Your revenge now is only to leave her, leave her alone forever with the knowledge that she is to blame for everything! You were a kid who died way too soon because of HER! Leave her to miss you, knowing it is her own fault you are willingly leaving her because she killed you and robbed you of everything you would have had! Leave her!

Choose.

Stay! Mystic!

Leave! Revenge!

MYSTIC!

REVENGE!

Choose.

.......NOW!