Forgotten Forever? (Twilight Fan Fic)

Realisations

Gritting my teeth I glare at the dark ceiling. Damn this bloody curse! I mean, why does Aro keep changing everything? Why does he need to keep making everything that much more torturous? 

Why is he doing this to me? 

That's the question really, why he left Carlisle with memories when he thought I didn't have any, and then when he realised how he couldn't actually wipe my meomory he actually put me back in this world when I could easily contact vampires around the world, tell them everything and create some kind of army to take down the Volturi. 

Why did he save me from the van as well? And why did Marcus of all people organise it?! Edward told me about how Marcus didn't agree with Aro when he wanted to kill Ness, and that he was stuck in a deep depression since his mate, Didyme, died. 

I thought Marcus would be on our side in all of this. 

Maybe he already is. 

Oh. My. God. 

I leap up from on my bed and grab my camera and the USB cable that came with it. Immediately I begin to import every single video on my computer. I then do the same thing with my phone. 

I spend the next five or so hours cutting together every video, and even film introductions to each part, finally burning it onto a disk. 

Finally I'm done, and I manage to get an hour of sleep in before school. Charlie is already gone by the time my alarm goes off though, so I turn over and go back to sleep without a reason to get up on time. 

The problem is I wake up with barely five minutes to get to school. 

After getting dressed hurriedly a run downstairs to find... Aro sitting in my kitchen. He is sitting in the chair the Charlie sits in, and the chair that Edward sat in all those years ago. 

The difference is, again, comical. 

"What do you want?" I ask tiredly, grabbing a bowl and some cereal before pulling the milk out the fridge. I'm going to be late to school anyway, so what's the point in rushing? 

"I wanted to ask you why you seemed to happy," Aro smiles slightly, but he seems suspicious. 

I shrug. "Maybe it's because I realised just how much of a dick you are and that you have no control over me?" 

Or maybe it's because I worked out how to break the curse. 

Aro rolls his eyes, and I smile, thinking of a way to make sure this never happens again. "Aro..." I grin slightly. "Are you not worreied that the vampires who did this will also realise how much of a dick you are, and turn against you?" 

Aro laughs, but it sounds more like a cackle. But at this point I find it quite funny. "Silly Bella. I already thought of that, and the vampires that did this were destroyed mere days after we wiped Carlisle and Emmett's memories." 

Yes!

This is going to make things so much easier. 

I smile at Aro and stand up, grab my bag and walk out the door. Arriving at school about half an hour late, earning an after school detention from Mr Gallagher. 

Although it's not as though I'll be attending that detention.

School seems to move even quicker than usual, and I don't even care that Edward is practically eating Jessica's face two tables away at lunch, I don't even care that Jasper keeps asking what I'm waiting for, and I don't even care that Alice is staring at me like she's seen a ghost, although it is getting annoying. 

Stupid talented non-vampire vampires... 

I guess. 

After a while I just reply to them with one thing. "Something bad's going to happen." 

After school I drive straight to the hospital. "Can I speak to Doctor Cullen?" I ask the receptionist, and I'm glad it's the same receptionist who saw me talk to Carlisle after Esme died, so she smiles and talls me to take a seat in the crowded waiting room. 

"Bella?" I hear Carlisle ask after a minute, and I almost wince at the sight of him. 

His once slicked back blonde hair is messy, and he needs to shave. There seems to be a constant pain behind his eyes that only the curse being broken will be able to heal.

I smile at the thought of my immortal father not being in pain anymore. 

And hopefully immortal again. 

"Hi," I answer weakly, nerves overtaking me slightly as I realise that after this I will... 

No, I can't even think of it right now. 

"Bella, are you okay?" Carlisle asks with concern as I walk up to him. 

"Yeah, yeah, I'm fine," I answer, but even I can hear my voice shaking. "I wanted to give you something."  I fish through my pocket for the disk, take it out and put it in his hand. "You'll know what to do with it soon. But, I think something bad's going to happen so you need to take this." 

Carlisle shakes his head. "Bella, what's goin on? Are you okay?" 

"I'm fine, I'm fine," I try to smile, but it comes out as a grimace. "I'm sorry, but I have to go."

Then I run to my truck, tears flowing down my cheeks. I don't understand how I keep telling people that something bad is going to happen. Maybe it's because inside I know that there will still be consequences if I break the curse...

Like Charlie dying. 

Again. 

Rosalie will probably hate me, but she will probably understand why I did it. 

But what if I'm just being incredibly selfish by breaking the curse? None of the Cullens wanted to be vampires, and right now they're happy, and human. 

No, I can't think of that. They won't hate me, I'm sure they won't. I'm sure everyone would want Esme back, and hopefully after I do this Esme will come back, and everyone will be happy. 

I pull up next to the cliff I jumped off once, and probably gave Alice and Edward a heart attack. I jump out of the cab. The wind has picked up and it plays with my hair and clothes as I inch towards the edge of the cliff. 

"I'm sorry Charlie," I whisper as I inch towards my death.