Secret Love

I who was the hourglass...

Sari was lucky she bought her key that Stevie to gave to her for the condo. In a rush she slammed the door in tears, she leaned against it and started to cry out loud. Her hands climb through her hair and in a need of comfort she massages her fingertips into her scalp, she hushes her cries and silently weeps into her hands. '' Why out of my whole life did they decide to bring themselves into my life'' she thinks, she stands up from her foetal position and goes into her room, and starts packing her things '' because they've got nothing better to do so now they want to stop being rock stars and come to me'' she argues to herself out loud. She roughly folds her clothing and grabs her things '' I've done well without them for the past ten years, I'm sure I can last another ten'' she adds, but then that thought of '' wait they took you in for a rehearsal, they listened to you, they comforted you...you haven't had that in ages''. She pauses for a second giving into that side of her conscience and drops her clothing, she suddenly has a painful urge to pee. She comes out of the bathroom and feels that sting of pain in her lower abdomen, almost near her pelvis again. Sari clenches onto the edge of the bed, she groans out loud, the pain last a few slow seconds, before she moves on. 

Stevie and Lindsey are on there way back to the condo, Lindsey called Kristen to pick up Stella immediately and told Kristen everything. He looks over to Stevie who is still wiping tears from her eyes, '' it's okay Stevie, we're very close, I'm sure we haven't missed here.''. Lindsey certainly wasn't expecting Sari to have an outburst like that, she was so kind and humble like Stevie but she had Lindsey's power to just out of now snap at someone when she was either under pressure or in a lot of torment. He felt guilty that he might have ruined Stevie's and his chance of having their daughter in their lives, he wanted a relationship with Sari more than anything. And the same was for Stevie, she wants to have Sari apart of her life, so badly it's almost killing her on the inside.  

Sari tries to control herself, she tries her best to not scream out loud, doing her best to contain the screams she wishes to unleash. She feels one side of her pelvis almost cramping up. The pain disappeared ten minutes ago now it's come back, '' please, no'' she hisses out loud. The pain goes away, and she stands back up from her crouching postion on the ground. She hears the door of the condo open '' crap I gotta hurry out of here'' she mutters to herself. '' Sari''' Lindsey calls out he sees the doors to the guest room slightly open, he turns to Stevie '' Steph, maybe it's best I talk to her first and then bring her out so we can all discuss this together'' she nods her head and gives him a simple and little smile '' okay'' her brings her head to his chest and kisses it '' I'll make some tea for us'' with that she goes into the kitchen. Lindsey opens the door to the guest room, Sari sits on the bed, her back facing him. He keeps the door open, but he stands still, feeling Sari's tenacity to want to be left alone '' I imagined this reunion with my real parents a bit differently'' she said softly. Her voice sounded almost hoarse, probably from all the crying. Lindsey nods his head in agreement, '' I didn't think much would happen. I'd just rock up to there home, meet them, probably have a couple of children. A young couple who couldn't take care of me, and wanted better for me.'' 

She chuckles '' but this is the total opposite. You're both millionaires, you are a guitarist from one of the biggest bands in history, and you're ex girlfriend 'the rock, n roll' queen is the greatest female in rock history. You're love story has to be the most passionate and the most turbulent story in the rock history wikipedia. And you had me?'' she turns her head to look back at Lindsey. The two's eyes meet, blue on blue, he can now see that all is not well for Sari and hasn't been for a number of years '' you had me? and you gave me up for adoption?'' she shrugs her shoulders and wipes a tear from her eye '' why?'' she ask. Lindsey clears his throat '' it was 1987, right before the tango in the night tour. The night just before the tour, I quit, and your mom and I we got into a very heated argument..it got very physical, I nearly tried to kill her and she nearly tried to kill me. This is the part nobody knows, after that we made up and 'let off some steam' at a hotel. Then a few months later I found out she was pregnant. I wanted to make it work, she agreed, but we kept arguing and arguing, and arguing and I nearly put my hands on her again. And when I nearly did, I realized how silly I was, and Stevie always knew. So she said that she can't bring a child into this world, knowing that it's going to be in the midst of this selfishness and passion amongst the two of us.'' He sits down on the other side of the bed, '' so when she said that I left her, and told her to do what she wanted. Then five months later the day before you were born, her mother called me, said Stevie wanted me...then I saw her, she looked happy...I've never seen her that happy before.'' 

He continues '' And I thought she looked incredible being heavily pregnant with 'my' child, she wanted comfort. She was four days overdue, and when I was resting with her she fell in labour. We rushed to the hospital, eighteen hours later, I saw you'' Sari softens her expression and releases her breath of anguish out softly '' you were the most purest thing I had ever seen. So little, so innocent, so new, and to think you came from me and Stevie, that totally changed my outlook on life and everything. And when I got to hold you, all I wanted to do was protect you and teach you guitar and play dolls with you. But I couldn't have you'' Sari shrugs '' you could have'' she says bluntly and Lindsey agrees with her. He watches Sari drop her head, he rubs her back carefully, she's put on a long black long sleeved t-shirt-dress on. After she lets out a few sniffles and long sighs, she screws her face and gasp, trying to restrain herself from screaming.

She does it again almost gasping for air, '' Sari babe are you okay'', she drops to her knees on the floor, '' ah'' she gasp again. Lindsey falls onto his knees, his arms around her, Sari can't contain it she gasp again but it's louder, Sari looks up at him '' It's my baby!'' Lindsey stops when he hears those words come out of her mouth. He stares at her in shock, and surprise, '' I can't lose him, I can't lose my baby! please help I don't want to lose him!'' she cries out loud, '' It's okay we'll get you to a hospital''. He stands up and runs over to the door and yells out to Stevie '' Stevie call an ambulance!'' he hears a glass smash and a few things fall to the ground. Sari then wraps opens her legs on the floor and leans her torso down as the pain in her pelvis and lower abdomen increase '' Ahh!'' she cries out in pain. She feels something flowing out of her, she crawls over to the ensuite connected to the bathroom, she falls to the bathroom floor and cries out in pain again. Stevie finishes calling the ambulance, just then the girls walk in '' oh thank goodness you guys are here'' Lindsey walks into the conversation '' have you called them, told them it's an emergency?'', '' yes Lindsey tell me what's wrong''. Suddenly they hear Sari cry out in agony again, they all rush into her room, they see the bathroom door to the ensuite closed, Sari hears them coming '' stay out'' she says. Lindsey ignores her and kicks the door open, with that Sari looks up at them and yells '' I said stay out!''. The image shocks all of them standing there, she sits leaning against the toilet, she's haemorrhaging from her below area, both of her hands covered thick in blood, and looks ghastly sick. Stevie covers her mouth in shock, '' Sari baby?'' Sari looks at Stevie and doesn't respond, instead she closes her eyes and starts to black out...  

I'M Gonna keep you guys hanging on...til tomorrow's chapter ( with love and many hugs) the author Litia Xx <3