Secret Love

For what it's worth.

They all wake up in the morning, Doctor Pritchett comes over to confirm the surgery. Lindsey lightly wakes Stevie, she still has the tutu clutched to her chest '' Gosh it's like she's obsessed with it'' he thinks to him. She wakes up, while Lindsey goes and wakes Sari's brothers up. She enjoyed spending time with Sari's little brothers, underneath all those layers of mischief and a tendency to almost kill themselves with the pranks and stunts they do, she knew they were real gentleman at heart. '' How is she, is she all right?'' Doctor Pritchett gives all of them a smile '' she's doing well, her surgery and blood transfusion is going well, however we're going to keep her in four four more days to monitor her. Then she can be taken home, but she's to be put on strict bed rest'' she looks to Warren, David and Greyson '' She's not to dance, lift, or do any form of strenous exercise or heavy lifting or fast pace exercising, any of that can cause her to bleed again and she can get infected. Which could lead to her chances of becoming a mother.'' all three of the boys put their heads down. Sari not dancing, is like the earth not in orbit. '' I know how much she longs to be a mother, so remind her that if she goes on to do any of those activities, her fertility is at stake'' Doctor Pritchett adds on a personal note. 

'' So her baby didn't survive'' Stevie ask, Doctor Pritchett sighs heavily '' no, I'm afraid it didn't.'' Lindsey is tempted to correct her but he does in his mind '' He, not it'' he thinks. Warren and the boys talk amongst themselves, '' excuse us we're just gonna take care of Sari's business'' they say to Stevie and Lindsey. Stevie unfolds herself from her relaxed postion and sits up properly '' oh she must be exhausted, my poor girl'' she says, Lindsey looks at Stevie '' I know, Stevie she really wanted her baby'' she catches his soft glare and listens. He shrugs '' when she looked at me and said '' I don't want to lose him'' I saw the same look in her eyes that you had in your eyes the moment you told me you were pregnant.''. She smiles at him, Lindsey continues '' I mean, I'm not saying it's a good thing, but her situation with andy just complicated things. She's been going through hell'' he says. Doctor Pritchett comes back and smiles '' She's awake, you can see her now'', they let the boys know '' Wait, we think that you guys should see her first, we actually gotta pop back down to the valley we have to talk to everyone at the studio and let them all know.'' They say goodbye and rush off to go about their business. 

Sari lies on the hospital bed, they've leaned the mattress up for her, so she's sitting up and doesn't have to strain herself. Although she feels like a heavy weight has been lifted off her shoulders, she's grieving her son. She only spent four months with him, but she had fallen so in love with him. But then she knew she might not have been able to take care of him, and that bringing a child into an almost forbidden love would have hurt the life of another little boy she adored so much already. '' Is it my fault?'' she thinks to herself, with all these thoughts going on in her head she brings her palm to the center of her forehead. She's getting a migraine just by thinking about things and getting stressed out for nothing. It's a tender situation, she had already had a name picked, and was actually thinking of keeping him, her plan was to move out of the house (she just paid off the mortgage) and was going to leave it for her brothers, while she worked her ass off til she was about to pop and then raise her son. But even she knew that could not have worked, '' Andy could have come and been a father to him'' though she felt that if things had worked out that way, what about Jerry, his father is going off to spend time and raise another womans child. 

She cringes at all the worries and woes swimming in her thoughts '' peace, I just want some peace'' she says to herself. She lies her head back on her pillow, she hates hospitals! because every time she came here something bad always happened. Last year it was because she had been bashed so badly by her ex, and the year before that she was taken to the cosmetology unit for plastic surgery on her nose and to get cheek injections. She wanted them to make her nose look as real as her actual nose. Hence why she's got Stevie's nose but it's narrower and straighter. She hates coming her every so often to get cheek implants, they always make her look a little too artificial she always has to wait a few weeks til they deflate a little and she thinks she actually looks human. She's forever angry at herself for dating that guy, for not listening to her instincts, she's even more mad that he only got five years jail time. The silver lining was that her restraining order on him was very Brutal!, if he was even in the same time town,city, or state as her, he would be arrested and thrown in Jail and serve life, with no chances of probation. Still it bothers her, she still has nightmares about him once in a while. Like the other night at Stevie's condo, she had such a terrible nightmare about him, she woke up in a fit of heavy breathing. She almost winded herself by how heavy and quick her breathing was.